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Pst Joakim June 07 Seminar

2007-06-10T11:14:00.000-07:00

I LVE PASTOR JOAKIM! HE ROCKS! totally! I LOVE USHERING! I LOVE PASTORS! I LOVE EVERYONE!

This time, the sentence that most impacted me was this, "Sure, we all face pressure and troubles, but we just got to turn back to God as he is our battery charger," Pst Joakim Lunquist. He's cool, funkay and rockin! He dances and sings like super duper well! He's so anointed and is always so ALIVE! LOL. Also, our pastors just rock lah. i don't know how else to describe them.

Ushering today really brought me up another whole new level. Clarence, Jian Hong, Imai, Jooyu, Xinjie, Lester, JoJo, NADINE, NONI, Sweet, JIANMING etc. I HAD SO MUCH FUN with you guys. It's not just fun, but more than that, it's like a spiritual growing session in the sense of wisdom and sense of urgency. It's just wonderful working with you guys. Can't wait to usher again!

Also, i've GOT to mention this. i missed dancing! i m unable to dance for RED RAIN ): thats the saddest thing on earth! Duno lah, just felt empty without dance. SUPER SUPER EMPTY. Just cant wait to be surrounded by and with the dancers. I miss all of em. New ones that i havent seen and met, i cant wait to see them dance! Gosh, im YEARNING for that day to come.

signing off,
SABRINA>Disciple of God

PST JOAKIM SEMINAR(:

2007-01-14T07:54:00.000-08:00

STAY STRONG! GROW GROW GROW! (:

God i pray, we'll keep our hearts right and keep growing this season. YES! you heard it! it's a season for growth esp in our SCHOOLS and in our own lives! I CANT WAIT! seriously, I LOVE GOD! LOVE CHRUCH! LOVE PASTORS! LOVE MY LEADERS! LOVE OTHERS! WHOAH. Pastor Joakim's sessions were jst EXTREMELY powerful and refreshing and impactful. Cant wait to get the sec 1s and 2s! (: Tk's revival is NOT gonna end but its a whole new beginning!

DANCE: let's all keep our hearts right man. Dancing not to impress people but to express (quoted frm char) (: YES! every dance move is a form of worship to God. Let's not lose that spiritual element and keep our hearts guarded for God. Talents are given from Him, so glorify God with it!!!! LOVE YOU JESUS!

KAMPATEH KAMPATEH DANCERS DANCERS (2X)
WHO DARES TO MESS WITH US WILL BE CHAO TA (2X)
BANANANANANA (3X)
DANCERS!

USHER: seriously, i've never had such fun in usher since a long time(: There's such difference in ushering now. i cant explain that wonderful feeling. LOVE IT. Love ushering ppl into their destinies(seats) and helping to run the service well + fellowshipping! NONI bully me lah! hahah! i really had great fun with you guys man! looking forward for the next ushering day! (: EXCELLENT USHERS!

Mould me,
change me frm inside out(: ,
TK revival!
HEART FOR OTHERS
LOVE GOD!
SAB(:

2007-01-05T10:05:00.000-08:00

HEART AWARDS WAS A BLASSTTTTT! MAY ALL THE GLORY BE UNTO YOU LORD! You gave us the talent of moving our bodies to worship you! (: LORD YOU'RE AMAZING! Ushering people into their destiny! every single one of them!!! Mould me every single day Lord, Mould my heart. Change me from the INSIDE OUT God. Nothing can be compared to you cos YOU are the one who can fill up every single one of my heart's desire. You read our every thoughts every day and sends the holy spirit to guide us. I LOVE YOU LORD!

Say the word
and i will sing for you
over oceans deep I will follow
if each star was a song
every breath of wind praise
it will still fail by far to say
all my heart contains

I simply live
I simply live for you

As the glory of your presence
now fills this place
In worship we will meet you face to face
There is nothing in this world to which you can be compared
Glory on Glory, Praise upon Praise
You bind the broken hearted and save all my tears
by your word you set the captives free
There is nothing in this world that you cannot do

I simply live
I simply live for YOU - JESUS.

iloveRos!

RANDOM!

IMAIII and MEEE being retards!

the OTHER side of the tableee. HAH!

MOULD ME JESUS

2006-12-27T23:32:00.000-08:00

IT"S GONNA BE GREAT.

You are my source and my rock which i can depend on always
Never forsaken me and given up on me before
You're the only one that can provide Unconditional love
You're my one and only father that loves me(:

Insecurity! HERE I COME WITH MY DADDY!!!!

I LOVE GOD!

2006-11-26T07:02:00.000-08:00

I LOVE GOD!

Holy spirit come NOW - Dreams&visions are given to me and will never be thrown and rubbished away. I believe in YOU/ LOVE GOD LOVE PEOPLE LOVE LIFE. Going back all to basics and dreaming big big big and bigger! (:

these are some pics i took - ENJOY(:

i was high.

during world cup '06

okay. im lazy.... maybe nxt time. STAY TUNED

reply to tags

2006-11-25T09:25:00.000-08:00

Mich : SORRY! haha will post will post. But i dun have em'!
Audreyy : Your very welcome! Mix around more! It's fun to know more people!
Mich : YES! ME TOO! LOVE YOU SO MUCH! KISS KISS!
Perle : yea man. but hols so busy leh both of us!
Gab! : YEA! i'm really looking forward to that man((:
Char : CHARRY? haha -_-
Astrid : Hello Astrio ASTRID! <333>
Hilda : No prob!(: Anything can call us kay!

God's presence (YOUTH CAMP)

2006-11-25T09:11:00.000-08:00

YOUTH CAMP! well, honestly speaking it was really great for the sermon. I MISS PASTOR LIA! I REALLY MISS YOU PST LIA! i really miss being impacted by her anointed voice and sermons. Pst How is a fun loving Pastor too! I just love both our Pastors. I think both of them are the BIGGEST minded and hearted people ever. Pst Lia could really trust God under those circumstances. And so what about us, let us all learn from our loved Psters(: BIG HEARTED.

Felt God's presence so strongly during the sermons as well as during the praying part. Samantha Foo prayed for me(: LOVE YOU SAM! She told me i had fears many fears of rising up and i badly desire to wanna rise up and be a part of the pillars of church. Prayed for the chains of fears to be broken and to rise up. Really felt God's presence. Really was amzaed that God listens to our every small little thoughts. Really love you Lord! ((: It's like who else can read your thoughts la! Building our own altar was what we all had to work on and now that i'm already doing it - there's so much change. I'm genuinely happy from the inside out. I'm really full of God's joy wherever i go. When i need to voice out anything - go to God, when i need to cry out to someone - go to God, when i feel joyous abt something - go to God! I just love God's presence and really treasure it so much so much so much more. I LOVE GOD!

God's reassurance every now and then really pushed me on and on. It kept me going although there're many things happening in my family right now. Yes, He'll always be there for me. Sometimes, He might not give us answers. But i know, He's still always there listening and crying with me/sharing my joy etc. and i know that for sure(:

DANCE DANCE DANCE! YES! Dancing is really WOW. i love it. just love worshipping God through dance moves of my soul outwards. It's like expressing our love to God through movements. It's cool! It's really a priveledge to be a lyrical choreog. for the ministry and i'll make sure it'll be a good dance and people will enjoy it! WAHAHA!

GUITAR + VOCALS! S.O.W! Learnt really alot from Joanne for both classes. Dont wanna stop learning leh! (: It's gonna continue.... TILL THEN FOLKS.

RELYING ON YOUR STRENGTH,
TRUSTING IN YOU,
KEEPING STRONG IN YOUR WORD,
LOVING YOUR PRESENCE,
SAB(:

GAB'S LEAVING! )):

2006-11-14T07:15:00.000-08:00

GAB!!! WE MISS YOU! MISS YOU! MISS YOU! ):

You're the one who look into our every details and scrutinize us till you understand us truly. When we all have problems, u'll always be there for us. You don't bother if you have exams or not cos you care about us - spending endless times with the team, going out and slack and crap!, making jokes that crack us up etc etc! You're the one that bothers to understand us and all. AIYA! WE JUST MISS YOU LAH GABBY!

SAD SAB):
SAD C5):

overnight prayer meeting

2006-10-24T03:25:00.000-07:00

OVERNIGHT PRAYER MEETING

My very first overnight prayer meeting. No words can ever describe my feelings. YES. Prayer, is the key in every area of breakthrough in our lives. Pastor How mentioned the reason of struggle for many of us : flesh VS spirit. Honestly, i always though that we're fighting the DEVIL. Little did i know that we're fighting our OLD man. Praying, doing QT, reading the bible, read christian books etc are all ways to STRENGTHEN our NEW man and to crucify our old man. There's NO way i'm gonna let my old man come out again. My new man will always be strengthen.

Dreams. We all have dreams and visions. Yes, indeed. It will come to pass. We have to hang on and work hard. God moves in different ways for each and every one of us. We're all gonna grow in different areas (: GROWTH and EV is in this season. TK's revival is gonna grow like NEVER before and we're all gonna put our DIFFERENCES aside. Hypocrites or not, we don't care, cos all of us are heading for ONE goal : get the unsaved saved.

Politics? Nah. The only reason for that is : jealousy/small mindedness. People may never agree but its just my opinion. Hmm but dont you think its true? For eg: If A rise up faster than B then B will get jealous, then will talk bad things and blablabla den the whole cycle starts! Another eg: If C gains praises from leaders and D doesnt then D gets jealous and all. This cause the cycle of quarrels to start again. Well, our team maybe wasting time always deciding on where to eat cos we take SUPER long to decide. But why get unhappy over such small stuff like time taken to decide where to eat? Friends, let me encourage you to not brood over such stuffs as we've got OTHER BIGGER things to ponder upon. If you treat God seriously in your life, backsliding or not joining the team will not be a thought in your head at all. Instead, you'll be thinking how you can contribute! (: Sometimes, some may feel unappreciated but think about it, is it being unappreciated for things that are good or considered bad? Pride is super subtle that no one will realise that you have it in you. Everyone has pride but it depends on whether you can control it or let pride control you. Only by praying and spending time with God then pride in our lives can be changed/altered.

TEAM. As a team, we work together despite our differences, any thing unhappy about, just voice it out frankly and we'll change what is necessary or say out our own opinions as well. It doesnt help avoiding nor does it help by coming up with excuses. All we care is do you have the heart to cooperate with all of us as a TEAM? and work together towards ONE goal?

Think about it.

AFTER EXAMS!

2006-10-12T10:13:00.001-07:00

GUESS WHAT!!!!!! SAB'S BACK! Well, from the whole great vacation of taking EXAMS> well, actually preparing lah. hahha im SO GLAD its OVER! WHOOOOOOOOSH! hahah anyways. Got loads of stuffs to list out lah!

1) Went to visit VIVO CITY!
2) DANCE!
3) EXERCISE = VIGOROUS
5) CULTURE IN TK!

1) Basically today HoGcTKsians went to VIVO CITY! ain't it cool!? goodness. we were almost dying walking around the WHOLE shopping centre. and like not ALL the shops were opened lah! can u imagine if ALL opens? we'll be shopping like FOREVER! ahaha oh. and there's a shop named FOREVER 21 which sells like feminine dresses ahaha super cool and funkay! We went to see the view too. I LOVE THE CABLE CARS!! they even had colours on them! so cute! hmmms. then FL lost her hp in BK and some guy picked it up so she had to go get it back. We also spent like extra $3 on a movie : SCOOP! the old man was super super super cute! okay. that's ironic but.. his eye brows! hahahaha!!!! so funny la! but the story line was.. hmm duno la. anyway, before that, Gab was preaching to us about PRIDE. It was really refreshing and impactful to relisten to that sermon. It was like a whole new sermon with the same meaning but it was just... just WOW. i was jst blown away that i couldnt even stop crying though i was like even playing the guitar. hahahaha

2) "DANCE DANCE DANCE! DANCE BEFORE THE KING! I GIVE YOU ALL MY HEART... I GIVE YOU EVERYTHING!!!" i love LOve LOVE that song! it's just a priveledge to be dancing for God. DANCERS OF HOGC! DON'T YOU THINK SO?!?! It's just wonderful expressing our love and faith and everything to God by our every moves and this ministry may just seem like some other dance lesson or something. BUT it's totally different. WHY? Cos we have a special element in all of us -- GOD. Our father who created the ability for men to move and express their feelings to God. That was the main purpose of dance. Although the world may have "polluted" dance like you know... pole dancing and stuff.. God placed us here in HOGC to regain back the pure heart and art of dancing. Not just dancing, but in ALL areas of arts/media etc. It's really such a priveledge to be used by God in this very area. THANK YOU GOD(:

3) EXERCISE! goodness. guess wad! i'm going to take back ballet, lyrical jazz, hiphop and like duno what else! im gonna be FIT! haha by sweating it ALL out! But obviusly like one course is like $200 so i'd rather take like 1 at a time.

4) Last but not least. about the culture of small talks(: Actually the truth is when we talk about small things like gossips and stuff like that, we may not notice it ourselves. Like what Gab said -- PRIDE IS SUBTLE. It applies the same here. Small talks is the cause of the lost of revival in the past. NOW.. we're gonna regain TK GROUNDS for God. We're gonna work together as a team to save lives and get them to know that there's some one up there, a perfect Father, who cares and loves them. SIN maybe covering them and hindering them from opening up, but with faith and God, everything's possible. Cos God moves by FAITH and not NEEDS. I was most impacted by this phrase.((: Coming together every morning/recess shouldn't be a chore or FORCED TO come but it should be automatic and you should be looking forward for fellowshipping with each other and talking revivals/dreams and visions/ministries etc! This is let us show our friends that Christians in HOGC are not small minded people but are BIG at heart and will love all who wants to know more about Jesus.

We believe in you Jesus. Through Faith, we all believe. May you move in every areas of our lives and may your blessings be upon us. AMEN(:

Daughter of God.
SABBY!

2006-07-02T03:46:00.000-07:00

when we started... jesse just came.. posing maniac (X
trying to blow from far..

and.. I DID IT!

tried to make weird faces...but only caught one of em'.

insist on having a pic with my cake! (:

jesse's trying to kill me

3 of us supposed to like bite it.. but looked like it failed.

look! its seoul garden -___-

looks wrong

wheeee.
my leader and i ((:

lastly.. grp pic (: with kevin! hehe

PICTURES OF TIOMAN AND BIRTHDAY (:

2006-06-24T23:55:00.000-07:00

OUR PARTY'S PICS! WHEEE! water splashing effect. (:
YAE! wah. eugene act macho. haha
ROAR - kill cake!
sweet smile on cake!
KILL CAKE!!!!!!!!!
she's super cute!!!!!
LOVE JESS!
KISS jess
now her turn..
party smile!
ok. this seems so lesbo and WRONG. hahaha
trying to be the 8 hand goddess? hahaha
3A people! ((:

TIOMAN PICS (:

so amazed by the beach (:

grace and me in our room!

still got more la.. but lazy post. hahaha enjoy!

BIRTHDAY PARTY WITH CELINE!!!

2006-06-24T22:26:00.000-07:00

BIRTHDAY PARTY WITH CELINE!

YAE! ytd was the celebration! (: was really really really fun! aha i didn't know like my mum invited so many adults la! haha i went for service so sorta came a little late for the party but luckily my friends were all not there yet. then celine and friends were there eating too! HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY CELINE! yup! Then somemore alot of food but some complained not enough! played bombs and stuff then start sabo-ing people into the pool. it was like super cold. i think many caught a cold already. haha then the security guard always come and spoil the fun la! HAIS. anyway, we started pouring ICE into each other's back so itchy and COLD la! hahah in the pool, jenn kept going like underwater to touch touch people's thighs and foot! EEE haha then one time she caught Gab's foot and thought it was mine then Gab pulled her whole body up!! hahaha she's so shocked la! so funny. then more people started to come andhad more more fun splashing.

Then in the jaccuzie, we were relaxing la. Then sudd we spotted the security guard staring at us from the opposite side then we girls ran off and hide at the playground. haha! the guys got scolding from the guard. But slysly justea and marcus hid under the bridge that the guard couldnt see them. SLY LA! hahaha received lots of presents too. love it! hehehhe When we were cutting the cake, we didn't have knife ready so we wanted to use the fork. how weird is that. lol. but a knife popped up la. -_- ahah anyways, it was a cheese tiramisu cake la. duno which is which. Celine and I shared a cake. (: It was ok size but afraid that there wasn't enought for all. So an aunty cut like SUPER small for us. haha but it was really really delicious!!! YUM YUM. Then all of a sudden jenn smashed some cream onto my face and everywhere! so did FL. i was like.... !!!!!!! so i smashed their share of CAKE on them. so funny! everyone was like laughing at my horrendous cream face. malu. Then guys started to take up guitar and play songs worship God. haha i went to accompany 2E friends (: had lotsa pics taken too. lol. lesbo ones alot too! hahaha will post them up soon. Thanks all of u so much for coming ((: really had a fun time.

AND SCH'S RE-OPENING! my hwm is like.. kinda complete kinda not. so when i come back from youth alive concert better check through. hahaha! alot pages blank! AHH. anyway, i'm kinda excited for sch to re-open! haha. weird? but not! cos Tk revival will be here! We'll re-conquer the school! RE-VIVAL! ((: and lessons after lessons will be so fun! hahahahaha turning NERD 2mr! (:

FEELING CLEAN (:

2006-06-23T05:11:00.000-07:00

I feel great! i feel clean and good(: i like it! Friends will always be friends of course not forgetting our [protected 21] and memories of ran2. Anyway, thank you Gab so much. Thank you Jenn, Zach, Celine, Grace for encouraging me and supporting me during these times. -chuckles

2mr's my birthday party! Hope many turn up. inviting like church ppl, 3A ppl and 2E friends + celine's friends. It's a party collaborating with Celine! haha. SO FUN! can't wait man. My life feels better. Breathing God's air right now. Feeling so ALIVE!

everything's clean

2006-06-16T20:17:00.000-07:00

Oh lord. Thank you for forgiving me. Thank you so much for your love, i love you daddy. i really loveyou so much. I'll serve you almightily. I'll serve you even so much more. I'll serve you like i've never before. I'll study for you lord, for my future, for YOUR glory. I know its hard to let go, but what's done is already done. I know it's hard for you to let go too. But we're still friends. Good friends. Wishing to see each other grow more in God. Get closer to Him. I know i'm now just an ordinary regular. I know that God will put forth a greater purpose in my life. To serve Him even more. God, the chances were there before me so many times, but i lost it. I let it fade away. Sorry Lord. I'm really sorry.

Thank you leader. Thank you so much for forgiving me. I know you must be feeling very disappointed in me. Thank you for telling me all of you guys still love me. Well, i just wanna thank God once more for giving me a spiritual and GREAT family, who still loves me despite of whatever i did.

To you, i guess it's over for us but i'm again glad that we understand it all and that it's better for us this way. or rather, you may not think its better for you, but from the perspective of God, it is better. Please friend, let's grow in God. It may be hard for us to overcome this, but friendship lies between us and i really wanna see you grow so much more. To have the fire for God. Don't ever backslide due to this. Because God is a Great God and will forgive us. However, what we've done is not in God's list of goodness of course. (: friend, you'll always be my friend.

help ):

2006-06-15T09:26:00.000-07:00

family - glad everything's pieceing back together now. puzzle's back to normal again. i know its YOU.. God. i know you made this happen. (: LOVE YOU HEAVENLY FATHER.

friends - back to normal too. its YOUR plan my God. i know you'll be with me always. maintaining our brotherly n sisterly friendship with your love with us all the time.

i know. its hard to let go. i will soon. very soon. im really sorry. to you and God. i duno what to say.. i feel like useless freak. like i shouldnt even be here. but i know.. God. you told me again and again, that we all have a purpose. and i know mine's here. right here. and all i have to do is to grab it. you'll be sad, crying.. so will I. i'll miss you so much. but, putting Him up there is what i've always been doing. i really love God. memories will always be etched in my mind always always always. never forgotten. please, forgive me. for all of these. sorry... sorry.. sorry. ):
it;s hard to let go i know. but it has to be done. sooner or later.. and i chose already. i found it hard to communicate with the 'sredael'. i don't know why. i cant share anything right now to you guys. its jst different. i don't know. i know the guilt is there. and the only way to cleanse myself is by God's grace and mercy and most important.. love. i know i've let you down. please forgive me. you know my heart. God.. i love you so much. i'll not stop praying to you.. i'll never stop worshipping and spending time with you. I'll always be with you.............

in msia!

2006-06-11T00:05:00.000-07:00

In malaysia now. in cousin's house! haha. 1st day came down and had dinner and slept and study! ): can you believe it? did finish and revise all the bio stuffs haiyoo cant belive it. lol. den on sat night went to my cousin's house and played game and i lost all the time. ok la... i needa go already. im bored!!

2006-06-06T08:15:00.000-07:00

whatever la. like i care. so what man. im not gonna say anything cos im jst not in the mood right now. i might as well go there and not return. pms? nah.. not that la. jst everything sucks BIG TIME right now. heck everything la. im jst so sick n tired of every shit. u're happy aren't u. mockin at me right now aren't u. i know.. don't need to tell me. u've got tons of other friends out there what for do you even need to confide in me. ya... so jst get lost la. no sry. IM getting lost.

u know what. even if my family's going bonkus n u're like leaving.. im not gonna bow my head and apologise. ya.. whatever. heck everything heck YOU. happy now aren't u. BE THAT WAY

FABULOUS

2006-05-31T19:21:00.000-07:00

TIOMAN via RED RAIN

DAY 1
basically we all went tioman for an IPW project work. yes. We met in school at like 6.15AM den set off to somewhere in malaysia to depart for tioman island! had so much fun during the journey where celine became HORNY. right? horny celine! hahaha. den grace, as usual, started to talk to herself and bcame crazy! anyways.. we boarded the ferry and headed to the wonderful island.

REACHED TIOMAN!! HOOOOO! the beach ever so clean, the sea super clear.. well, at least clearer than singapore waters. then went to the restaurant to eat our lunch which was pasta and stuff. and we were allocated to our rooms! haha. it was OKAY la. not too bad. the rooms could obviously fit 5 of us. Then not long after, we had to go for our introduction WALK in the RAINFOREST which formed like the mountains. haha. it was really exciting! then while we finished the walk, we got to sea the sunset!!! super beautiful. serious.. it was totally WOW. then went to eat our dinner and had briefings den went to sleep!

DAY 2

Woke up and had breakfast den had our 7KM trek in the other side of tioman's rainforest. it started to rain as we headed there and many of us got really drenched. LOL! but it was really fun lah. the trek was really interesting but tiring as our legs were breaking. OH OH! forgot to say. we met ALOT of squirrels and those monkeys too! SQUIRRELS so cutee! haha.

Day 3

our so called last day of the whole trip. well, we're supposed to wake up at 4.30AM and meet at 5.00am for coastal one. but as usual again, our group woke up the latest. hehehe. Then the sky was super dark and like the tide was so LOW. it drew all the way back THERE. ya. lol. anyways, we had to look for specimens and had to be careful of dangerous ones. then had breakfast as tide was rising again. and it rose super fast too! then had free time to collate our results. then waited for rainforest grp to come back frm their filming thingy and had our lunch where we got to know more, so much more about our one and only geog tch - MRS YEO! haha found out she's really a caring teacher man. lol. then had our 2 hr break where our whole group went to SLEEP after a LONG morning. then woke up and had to go visit a turtle sanctuary. it's someone who set this up to save the killings of many CUTE turtles. yea! we had to trekk a WHILE to reach that beautiful quiet place. its really peaceful and quiet that all ur problems can be forgotten. the beach was extremely clean over there and we saw many turtle eggs. there was one "nemo" which was a deformed turtle as one of its legs was shorter. then had free time again there, when our whole group played concentration game! WHOOO! so fun! then headed back for our dinner. and we had a night trek which wasnt that bad cos we get to hold snakes!! haha. super nice and slimy but cool and CUTE! saw some fruit bats flying around too and had an encounter with a flying squirrel! then had our bonfire (:

DAY 4

our last day ): woke up like really late as all of us wanted to sleep more thus skipping our breakfast haha. then had our last briefing and thanked 'SUPER' raj, scek chuan and karen for guiding us the past few days! (: love you guys! then had our souvenir shopping ((: and waited for our ferry to come. took somemore pictures of the perfect beach. yup! then went back to singapore....the old boring country. jkjk. hahaha

but i missed red rain ): there's next yr. yes, nxt yr.

PMSES

2006-05-22T06:31:00.000-07:00

Why do people pms? i have NO idea.maybe i do that sometimes but i've been cutting down severely on that ok!

anyway. i really love beaches and stars in the sky. the huge circle moon and jenn's company. (: i really cant wait for the holidays man. serious.. i dun feel like going there. i wanna go red rain. i wanna go red rain!!! ARGH.

learnt dota today. jst wanna give a very big big big big thanks to zach!! haha. ahh. so funny... but i dun understand how come all of em are like so pro can. i shant brood over it! haha

i don't feel like blogging since someone's really pmsing. sucky
and my results like... forget it. everythings so horrible.

God.. miss you. Love you....

TRYING

2006-05-12T20:20:00.001-07:00

HAH;lijsad;lfksjad;flk like ablablablablbalabl jst tryin to test it all out has;ofhudas;lifdh

2006-05-04T03:24:00.000-07:00

http://www.redrain.sg

Go to this website to check out more about RED RAIN! It's a concert coming on real soon - 27th and 28th of MAY. wanna come? im sure you do. GET TICKETS FROM ME. and the best part is.. you get to enjoy GREAT music and it is FREE OF CHARGE. i bet you.. you won't regret coming.

EXAMS. i'm finally here to update once more. goodness gracious me. im feeling the stress of it. But 2mr's SS so can slack a little. hahaha! I was thinking of something just now. Some people wanna get into relationships to search for love, protection and sense of belonging to someone else. They want so much to be noticed, adored and cared for. These people wanna find true love.. but always fail to cos in the end surely still break up. Break ups and spoiled relationships incurred hurt, tears, sadness onto them. They don't give up. They continue to search for their true love.

Well, lemme give you a better suggestion. There is one person who'll provide you ALL these. TRUE love, everlasting companion, give you protection, sense of belonging, a perfect listening friend -- our one and only heavenly father. I'm serious. HE is the only one that can provide all these to us. HE is the only one that doesn't leave us in the ditch but picks us up and cleanse us. Why can't these people who are in search for true love come to HIM, why not carry the same attitude of not giving up for bringing lost souls to HIM. Let's do it people. Let's run back to JESUS.. Let's pray for new friends.

Okae. guess what leon said :

Leon : obsessed with death! O_O, obsessed with killings squirrels

SAB : saddist!
Leon : feed you poison nuts

LEON : squirrels are cute

SAB : u dare not agree? haha

Leon : okay i agree to a large extent

SAB : GD

Leon : as squirrels have bunny teeth, puffy cheeks and a furry tail. and also they are small in size and are very nimble

Leon : however, they are super irritating when it comes to photographing them as you can hardly catch them on your stinking camera

Leon : there are flying squirrels too

SAB : got? where?

Leon : their "armpits" got this web thing

Leon : like bats, means you got web under your armpits!

ISN"T THAT PURE EVIL?! hahaha. hais. nvrm. i'll go study first. oyes. here are some pics frm dat day..

source : amirul's blog......

2006-05-02T02:37:00.000-07:00

RED RAIN'S COMING TO TOWN!

WHATEVER!

2006-04-15T01:07:00.000-07:00

now that sounds so like jennifer. haha. im so excited for every little thing!
1) EXAMS
2) red rain VIA tioman
3) stingray

YES INDEED! now that sounds nicholasy. haha. EXAMS! im so "excited" man. cant wait to open those thick books and screen through those beautiful, small, big, green, yellow letters! -_- cant wait for those to be memorised! oh gosh. im going insane! im going nerdy. oh yes i am! hahaha

but the bad news is... red rain clashes with tioman! ARGH. i don't know what to do. my mum heard about it and was super angry and demanded me to go tioman. i was like -_-. right. but its ipw! and its not only ME not going for red rain.. itslike.. jenn, melson, leon ...... which makes matters worse! AHHHHHH... how exciting can my june hols be. there's still usher chalet overnight which im planning to go cos i've nvr been to one with 'em. AND!! there's one more surprise dat im not planning to tell u guys cos its reallygonna be fun fun fun. (:

lastly,....sting ray!!! haha. im meeting jenn tonight at bedok for stingray. it rocks. but my flu n throat doesnt agree i think.right flu? haha. i did something really interesting today. i studied biology frm 9-1.00! can u believe it? and im doing maths now. how nice it is to be a nerd! hahahaha so i shall go complete study rule............

PMSES

2006-04-12T04:43:00.000-07:00

im sick. really sick. as in seriously sick. flu + cough + sore throat. what is this.. added on that 2mr there's netball + volleyball + bio test + LESSONS. im not surviving through it. We won netball in like 3 games but lost in e last n semis. We really had our team spirit going on but soon it all faded away. Where did it go to? Even before the game started, some felt like loosing already. Lidat what for play? c'mon... let's work as a class, as a team. Let's not loose the fighting spirit. I really want our team to be together. So what if we loose. it's ok. as long as we're as a team. As long as we encourage each other.

PMS : why to people pms so much. im getting frustrated. IGNORING ppl is sucha lame thing. If u're busy jst say so la. Don't make people thing that u're ignoring them or wad. and you. why do you have to do this. u might not realise it but i do. It's getting on my nerves. just stop the whole ignoring thing.

FRIENDS : only jenn perle. the rest? no. no more. gone. disappeared i suppose? hi? bye? hey? ya. dats all. dats just it. how nice to have friends like that huh.

LEADERS : i so miss chiwen. chiwen, we all know u're really busy and even sick. please please take care of urself. we really miss u. our tk ppl are like....oh man. chiwen! we want you back!!!

I really don't know what to say. I miss God. I really miss you.. i wanna confide in you again. i wanna spend time in ur presence. i wanna worship you and share with you all my problems.. how difficult can life be. no. it is nvr difficult. its only what we think that makes it difficult. Insecurity probs will nvr reign my life.

family? are u there? where's daddy? mummy's here all the time. but where are you dad? i can't see, hear nor feel you anymore. Having daily dinners, lunch and breakfast with family is no more happening. Calls frm you dad? i dun hear them. Frequent family day during weekends? no more either. Where have they all gone? i don't know either. Friends? jenn? yes. u're here. perle? yes. u're here. the rest? no... no more.

I don't blame anyone. no one. but myself.

I MISSED SY ROGERS!

2006-04-08T09:22:00.000-07:00

oh gosh. help me. i'm really dying this time. my head's spinning like crazy! headache's kiling me man..basically had camp the whole of fri n sat. only one word to describe : CRUEL. This one i MUST blog about it. There was a changing parade. and this was how it went :

sir : i give you all 5 mins! change to your full-u. time starts NOW!
(all running as fast as we can - changing in progress)
sir : 10, 9........5,4,3 ,2, 1, 0! SLOW! go back change to your pt kit in 5 mins! GO!
(all running like siao already. sweating like mad - changin in progress)

this continued for like 3 times. SO HORRIBLE. and guess what, we didn't change in toilets ok. We had to change in TENTS. 4 people changing at the sme time in ONE tent. so stuffy, hot and disgusting. goodness me. i wondered how come i even attend the camp to bring myself to torture. We had lectures after lectures and it was so boring! i was dozing off all the time and kana scolded for my bad attitude sumore. But i didn't care actually. haha. i left my barrae' on e table and went out of e class room and ma'am took it. den i was like : "ma'am can i have my barrae back?" she said later. ok fine. Then i went back and stared at her :" can i have it back now?" they were all so shocked to see that attitude la! super funny but super pissed but i liked it! loll.

I shant talk abt camp anymore since it angers me whenever i think of it. But it wasn't THAT bad i suppose. AND GOODNESS ME> someone HELP!! :

monday - E maths level test
tues - phy and chem test
wed - SS and geog test

i don't get a single thing in geog although i know it is one of the SIMPLEST topics. right - i admit it.. im SLOW. lol but it isn't my fault! and mid year is like a few weeks away and my recent test results are all like.. ahh. it didn't use to be like that. i seriously have to become nerd now!!! i don't carela! haha.

oh my sophia! i miss stingray oh so much! i miss chilly fishballs so much! ARGH. the hot stinging feel of the chilly fishball down your throat, oh so cooling! i really miss it! i don't care... one day mst go back to eat ok!

I just wanna thank these people for standing by me. not close and close ones. (:
PERLE : thanks for listening to all my problems and sharing with me too. i really miss you man! thank you for all the support and care that u give me just like a sis. (: You're really a great friend ok. been friends since like P3 to now. and we're still like best frens??? haha. more like sisters huh! just wanna say that no matter what happens i'llalways be here for u. well, vice versa rite? hhaha

JENN : u ah. too bimbo la! lol. jkjk. ur bimboticness 'attracted' many ppl i guess. haha. or was it ur 'ping ping'? anyway. ur my sis in christ, sis in sch, sis at hme. i share my probs with you all the time and u never fail to listen and give advices. You even cheer me up by those stupid lame jokes which i love so much! haha. i love it when we bully teachers together, slack together, shop together, chat together, pray together, study together. love you so much!

GRACE : although i've not been sharing probs with you but jst wanna let you know that u're my gdy fren always kae. u're just so adorable and everyone loves u!!! (: just want you to know that when u have probs.. don't keep it to urself but tell it out. U're lidat! cannot! if u bottle it up.. u might explode any time u know. (: im always here for you n thanks for being there for me all the time.. u nvr fail to do so right gracey?!

FL & Alex : although some probs with our lives we don;t share it with each other and we might not be close either. But just want you to know that i enjoy your company so much as your laughters are really contagious and both of your jokes are always super funny and nvr fail to put a smile on me!

Soph : stingray + fishablls! AHH. u're the only one that loves DAOMINGSI with me! u're the only one that is can go mad abt him with me! aww... he's still so handsome! haha. kk. you ah.. serious time serious, funny e time den funny. so is dat a gd thing? yes i s'ppose. LOL. although ya la... we might not share our own probs with each other, but wanna tell you i enjoy your company too!! (:

still got sumore but my headache's really killing me.

FRIENDS

2006-04-04T05:03:00.000-07:00

today was tiring. plain old tiring, firstly, i was so tired in the morning and went to sit with rach n hs and all bcos u know why..... i just can't stand it too.right jenn? URGH. kinda rlly irritating. UNFORTUNATELY, my phone landed up with kah chee once more and he told me that DM confiscated it. i was really stupid enough to believe, well, at first i didn't and thought he was playing the prank on me again. Then they kept on saying DM took it so i was scared la! haha. den i spotted DM in the canteen during recess and asked her. She was mad :"i don't confiscate people's phone for the fun of it! i didn't!" i was like... o-kae....... den she asked me who would use her name to do this kinda stuff and i was abt to tell her when i saw nandeeesh. and he kana scolded. OOOOPS (X haha. he was like super pissed at me and gave me the attitude. like -.-"" fine. den netball intercom. HORRIBLE. before it started, i cudn't even shoot a single ball in! But i did in the end la. We were competing against 3B and we won. which was so tyco. AND IT STARTED POURING LIKE CRAZY again. and i was thinking if i should run in the rain or not. But in the end i didn't la. But still, i got drenched once more while walking home. how horrible can the day be. 1) being humiliated in front of some ppl due to my lameness i suppose.. -coughs. 2) drenched totally. Adding on that i had to go for ballet class!!! i was dying. and i AM dying right now. my muscles are all aching. ARGH.

i just realised how people treat friends.
Grp A : substitutes. their cliques are not there and they just use you. These people will always come looking for you when they're so alone. And when they have their own friends, they'll just not bother abt you.
Grp B : Normal friends. like just a HI and a BYE in sch. which is normal la.
Grp C : REAL friends. talk and share with you all abt their problems and gives advices. Talk to you when bored. Talk to you even when u're not bored. -.-
Grp D : mistreat you. They'll just laugh at your lameness. But when they're with you, they don't find it lame. When they're with others, they'll like give you that -__- face which i find it really super irritating.

i suppose only perle belongs to Grp C. i really miss you perle. I wanna talk to you badly. I feel like breaking down with all the family thing and all. Why cant we meet like everyday.... this is real bad. My cousins are like so bz with their own lives and even my closest cousin is bz with his gf and the other with animae. Friends in school, no need to say. It's all just Grp B friends. maybe im plunging myself into self pity. But im praying for the faith in myself. Even without any of these, i'll have God and chiwen, gab and pastors.

P.S : i really can't stand it when bcos of some guys. people just hack care about their friends and that's what i mean by hopeless. Like, do you that desire to be the centre of attraction?!?

2006-04-04T01:45:00.000-07:00

lemme illustrate it.

G1 + G2 = very close frens.
G2 is someone who's like very very close and does everything (almost) together. and somehow pops out G3+G4. and G2's like acting really wierd. ah. forgetit. i cant explain it. i feel like im somehow back in my past again. this cant be. why are friends always coming and going. forget it.

DRENCHED

2006-04-03T04:35:00.000-07:00

wad a horrible day la! gosh. had all the 3 tests today in a shot : BIO, CHINESE and A MATH. i have NO comments on any of the tests, you should know why. basically, i came home with cheryl ONLY. and i have no idea how come serene and grace did not board the bus. Like... -.-" just bcos they wanna board a double decker one? goodness. and guess what. IT STARTED RAINING! why must is always rain. i just don't get it. the weather's mad! you know.. MAD! so me n cheryl waited at my bustop for her bus14. and like i decided to wait for the rain to stop but unfortunately, i rained HEAVIER. so i decided to take a cab home when my house was like just a distance away. lame right, but when i was waiting, bus 14 came cheryl boarded and JO came down! THANK GOODNESS. den we decided to take a romantic walk in the rain together - soaking wet and we were like laughing at the way. then met limpon's m'am, forgot her name.. but she shared with us the umbrella seeing us so pathetically drenched. so it didn't really help but still.. thank you!! (: it was so darn funny. i really hope dat during e netball 2mr it doesn't rain k. praying for NO rain!

and i wanna add. I LOVE YOU PERLE! talking to you really made me feel loads better. i really miss the times we spent just sharing probs and giving each other advices and laughing and joking and crapping and most of all, EATING! haha. u're seriusly like a sister to me. just that we cant see each other often at all! ARGH. well, just want you to know that when in times u need a listening ear, i'll be here ya.

i love you jenn too! love the times when we just spend talking and talking and sharing and stuffs like that. love shopping with you!! (: HUGS N KISSES.

Alot of people are like getting sick and i think i am too. my head's spinning like crazy man.

APRIL

2006-04-02T05:40:00.000-07:00

ok. time passes like super fast. one week passes just like that, and now's april. that's a bad thing. im getting older each day! ARGH. tmr's like bio n A maths level test la. i think im not gonna do well la.

MONEY MONEY MONEY. y issit so darn important. ok. it IS. but mst it go to the extent that it even breaks family relations? all they talk about is money and nothing else. what am i suppose to do? like how m i gonna help? they care about each other? i don't think so. HE has another one out there to care and not this one here. this one stresses on how to sustain income and so on.. but all HE does is the encourage a little and say that his business will generate some money only mid april. So what is this one here gonna do? this one works damn hard that she even wanna postpone her op just bcos of collection her paycheck for us. She even puts her health 2nd compared for the care and love she gives us. What did HE do? NOTHING. NOTHING. NOTHING. its not that i hate you. i still love you. but im just terribly disappointed that this one's carrying all the load and the paying of bills and all YOU do is to just frustrate about your business that's not bringing in any money.

WHAT'S HAPPENING. GOSH.

ADVENTUROUS DAY

2006-03-29T05:32:00.000-08:00

IM SO UNLUCKY! 3 days in a row caught for something bad!
1. caught for blouse by VINCENT TAN
2. caught for blouse by VALERIE TAN
3. at e sme time.. brought her attraction to my ears. 2nd ear hole earing confiscated!
4. caught for copying chinese hwm in canteen by VINCENT TAN
5. caught by librarian for using hp in library
SO IRRITATING!!!

today started off super bad. lemme explain. i had to wake up earlier like at 5.50! so early!! then took stupid bus and met celine den went sch together. it was like super early la. we reached day n night at like 6.40 and went to buy sweets! yae. in class teased nandeeeeesh abt some stuff and kahchee took my phone for some golf game. right, den body jam. as usual.. pervertic instructor. he yelled : "C'MON! PUMP IT! AND PUMP IT!", "WHERE'S MY BOOTIE?! I WANT MORE BOOTIE!!"....... u can imagine how we felt infront of him dancing. YUCK. aniway, after dat went back class. and kahchee came and said :"ur phone got confiscated by muhammad." i was like... "HUH!?!?! SAY AGAIN!?!?!?" i was super angry but it was funny. den a few SECONDS later, he gave my phone back to me. how dumb was i?!?! hahaha. den pam pam was sick! get well soon yea pammy!?!.

after sch went library for some IPW thing and met chiwen, melson, meehan den went church. had prayer meeting!! (: OK. here's the ADVENTUROUS PART. i was rushing hme..thus running. and there was a metal ring string across which blocked my way. basically i tried to be sucha angel and decided to "FLY" across it. and unfortunately, yes. u've guessed it right. I FELL! I FELL FLAT!!!! OH MY!! the impact was really hard and so pain!! i've got scratches all over and was super PAIN PAIN PAIN! like.. wad was happening!!! den it was too pain to be true dat i had to sit on the road for a little while. den chiwen n mel were like : HAHAHA. ARE U OK!?! i was laughing instead of crying. but after dat.. the trip hme was super hilarious. super super funny. so high and crappy la! making jokes and i just realised dat my imagination skills are real gd.

WALA! im hme. revised bio n did chinese punishment hwm still left 1 chpt. i shall go slp now. im super tired after that grave adventure...

PUNISHED FOR CHINESE!?!?!

2006-03-28T06:59:00.000-08:00

How can i be punished for chinese?!?!?! OH MY OH MY. that is super lame! haha. lemme start with my day. came to sch with BORING lessons and mel brot chocs. how wonderful huh. but it was super throat irritating after dat like it was super rich in chocolate. aniwae. then lessons started. i dun get maths. i dun get bio. what do i get?! nothing. ok. you know what. i've decided to be a NERD. this is the only way to get my studies right on track man!! i don't care la! hahahaha. oh gosh. the thought of being one... eeew. right. then during recess, was copying jianyong's zuoye but was unfortunately caught by Vincent Tan. THAT GUY! URGH! feel like kicking him! he makes matters small to BIG BIG BIG. wads his prob!!! jenn says "its not even his subject! and everyone copies chinese!" YEA! hu doesn't! hahaha. den kana punished by our chiiiiiiina t'cher : cao xie zuo ye!! 3 chpters la! including instructions and qns not just answers! OH NOOOO.

i've gotta take dumb bus 2mr. luckily mummy could fetch me ytd n today. i was so slpy and tired. oh! i realise something. I've not been PMSing in the morning anymore. i'm serious!!! YAE! acheived something at least. GREAT. i'm going to flunk my chem n phy test. this is for real k. i didn't finish chem paper nor did i do great in phy. like i only studied a little. I really blame myself.. oh mann.. i gotta buck up!! the frequent tests freaks me out la. unlike some people who just revise like 5mins before tests and get like so high marks la.

Well, den went to TM for mos burgurs with jenn&celine. Had a great fun heart to heart talk with both of em. I FEEL RELIEVED NOW. haha. love you girls! I MISS PAMELA. without ur frequent NOISE pollution is so not normal! where are you pampam!??! or issit pamster e hamster? hahahaha.

Don't you realise time passes super fast. like every week goes too fast. maybe i've been wasting my time on unnecessary stuff like shopping. i'de better stay FOCUS. sounds like PCHAN.

IRRITATING

2006-03-27T06:30:00.000-08:00

oh no. pride overwhelmed her. she doesnt know it. should i tell her? or shuld i not. well, maybe i shud just pray abt her. yup! i should. everyone has pride but pray against it man!!! get it away!

just had BD - blessing department meeting conference on phone. yep. EUGENE! dun feel stupid. u're not k!! everyone makes mistakes. and im like always the BLUR and PUSHED around one. well, i don't feel really good abt being pushed around always either. BUT like what jason said, learn to take authority! i really learnt so much frm BD. (: LOVE IT! let's learn frm mistakes!!

JENN : you brighten up my day EVERYDAY without fail. sharing problems with you is like never ending and you never fail to give me solutions. I JUST LOVE YOU SO MUCH!

TODAY. BORING.. just plain old boring. i had PMS day today. i realised that i used narind's BIO bk. when mine was at hme. how stupid can i be. ya. really dumb. CHINESE lessons never fail to make me sleep. A maths.. ahhhhh. im dying of science n maths. i feel like i shudnt even enter A class. I'M SERIOUS! ok. this time im seriusly serious. its like.. whatever the tch says, i dun get it! maybe its bcos im always half asleep. ya. i shall slp earlier! ARGH.

I feel as if my mind's gonna BURST. 2mr's phy n chem test n E-maths test. i duno wads going on. its not like stressed. or issit? i duno!! and worst of all, it was raining today. what a nice way to start off the day which made me wanna slp even more. but my chocolates sure cheered me up today! i love DOVE AMECELLI!? is dat how u spell it? it melts in my mouth and its really tasty and yummy!!! MMMMMM....

i shall go eat one now.

2006-03-26T03:53:00.000-08:00

PICS FOR PLEASURE! in chronological order frm e bottom.!

jiaxin's bro is SOO CUTE!! ARGHH!!!

my wallet just dun love me.

oh man. on e way back to spore... we were laughing at frances. "i watched movie with my ex-stead last time...." we both heard as "estate".

FEFEDORA!!! BLACKS!

depressed FISHES UNITE!!

the last nite. ALL DRENCHED.

i miss em all!!!

lil children come to papa!!

poised`

faces drawn by markers!!

CUTEY!

TOCK's FLYING!!!

kids at orphanage playing HOPSCOTCH

lucy n me! ((: at e hotel lobby.

i so FLOW with the ferry. its name is : PENGUINE FERRY. and im wearing dis shirt. haha!

i jst love the biscuit!!

getting CRAZY in e hotel room!

feets unite!

before concert!

getting excited! reached bintan!

I LOVE THE BREEZE n THE SEA

CONVERSE unite
1st day on e ferry!

FATS

2006-03-26T03:06:00.000-08:00

i seriously think i m getting fat. cos i've been eating lots and lots and lots of chocolates. i haven eaten rice for like.... 3 days?? "im serious!!" hahaha. but i wanna complain abt something. basically, if friendship is based on ur body shape den is that still friendship?? NO WAY. i dont care if i'm like fat or wad, ok i DO care, BUT STILL.. im just pure angry with that. like its not as if im SEVERELY fat, or am i? lol. i mean like.. even if so keep it to urself rite. URGHHH.

im feeling giddy n falling sick so soon. ARGHHH. i gotta take bus again 2mr. like..... have to wake up 1/2 earlier AGAIN. im dying. DYING! im geting so lazy nowadays..oh gosh. but hu cares! hahaha. my mum cant send me to sch..... ARGH.

everyday since dat day is so NOT my day. but God's with me and i LOVE YOU!!!

I HATE FRIDAYS

2006-03-24T07:41:00.000-08:00

i seriously do. GOT SCH.. den HAVE NPCC.. den sumore got BALLET CLASS! is this like training for me to lost weight or wad?!?!?! i'll definitely lose ALOT of FATS by e end of this yr la!! haha. aniwae. today in sch super funny. pamela and i were having lotsa fun together. right pamster e hamster? she really look like a hamster la! (: aniwae. during recess had watermelon cake to celebrate earlier melson's bdae. it was like melting and looked kinda disgusting and i like lost my appetite. but! looks can be deceiving... hahah! it tasted really great. den during eng class after dat.. we watched OLIVER TWIST!! coolrite. haha den after sch went for pizza hut as mel treated like 9 of us. haha. den had NP!! OH MY.......... i shant blog abt it..u shall know my torture. hahaha. and after dat i even had ballet class. MY MUSCLES ARE ACHING ONCE MORE. URGH.

aniwae. 2mr's my guitar SOW test. pray for me kae. i shall go prac my guitar...

2006-03-22T07:15:00.000-08:00

today was super funny. listen to this : 1) MY MUM CUDNT SEND ME TO SCH n i had to take bus and woke up 1/2 hr earlier. can u belive it anort!! OHMYgosh. yes. n took dat stuuupid bus. so darn tired!!! den i smsed JENNIFURRR. and she din reply ANY of my msgs. power la hor. ): hahahaha. (2) after sch... waited till like 4.00 for e people for CG. den chiwen told me, fl, bimbo n alex to take cab 1st. chiwen, rodd, melson n leon later den go. den we were like HAILING for taxi for sucha long time!! hahaha. guess wad. we waited for like mins and sudd at e traffic light, we saw chiwen's taxi passed us! we were like " WAHLAU!" cos actually we cud have gotten on 2 taxis earlier but TARA n another girl took it when we actually hailed for it 1st. URGH! like wad was happening man! den kwara said : "y not u show a lil of urlegs,sure got taxi wan" i was like.. ok... wadever.. but i did it. hahaha. den 1 taxi came n it states 'EUNOS'. oh no! canort. we were heading towards town. den 1sec later, another taxi came 'BUKIT BATOK'. FL shouted :" yes yes! lets try!". den 1 sec later again, 3rd taxi came 'ANYWHERE'. we all rushed into the taxi. den FL was like "wait up for me!". hahahaha. hahaha. okok. den rushed for CG. CG was wow la. i cudnt explain how i felt. so i shant waste space here. hahaha. c? my legsworked!! haha. jk la.

BINTAN trip was a blast. went to e orphanage,concert. WHOOSH MAN! believe it or not. i kinda miss bintan. i miss rainbow and FISHES!hehe. loll. it was so impactful and mani people were touched by God. how cool is dat.

my holiday was sucha meaningful one unlike somebody's -hints. and OH MY GOSH! JOHN knows it! AHHHH> but i shant be paranoid. I dun care la! haha. ahahahaha rite jenn?!!. i just realised that i m in a bimbo team of bimbos! haha. FRUITY BIMBOS! haha. YAAHEE! haha.
ME : watermelon bimbo
Kwara : mango bimbo
Alex : apple bimbo
FL : i forgot
JENN : i oso forgot. hehehe

aniwae. i jst realise how much fun i had today.. haha. cant wait for 2mr.....

funy..

2006-03-08T06:33:00.000-08:00

Today was funny funny funny. i duno wd happened to me la! haha. lemme recall : basically in school, had body jam today. super fun ok!! haha. i love it love it love it. so fun. Saw many of the guys there dancing, like super funny!!! hahaha. quoted frm some guy "ARGH! i duno how to dance la!" hahaha. o.k after which boring old lessons once more BUT MR TCHEN lessons are NVR boring tho. hahaha. den went for IPW thingy geog+bio.. its so fun!!! gonna go TIOMAN and KUSU (wadever it is) and many more beaches la. haha. gonna be so fun fun fun but of course time consuming and tiring and SUNTANNING! haha. YIPPPEEEEEEEE! I love my grp people! haha. YOU GIRLS ROCK!

haah. aniwae. after sch went to canteen to wait for team outing and jenn to go for debates. we chatted some stuffs and den met rodd, melSON, lemuel and kwara. and oh no. i learnt dat melson's grp oso goin tioman. wad an unfortunate thing to happen gonna be a disaster. BUT. so sad... we're gonna go to e shore while some poor souls gonna go forests to meet e leaches to suck their blood! YUCKSS. den 2 of em went soccer playin and got stinky n WET! eeeew rite! ya. right, den went to PS. on e way, me n kwara were like doing some bimbotic stuffs. hahaha. den went long johns. here is the part. basically i ordered some thing.. forgotten wad is dat la. it was like not really nice tho, den during the EATING part, i was laughing all the way till everyone finished except for me. so horrible rite. basically my guine dream destroyed by mel n lem N KWARA. so bad la...criticizing me abt being a bimbo but a stupid one. IM NOT !! hahahahahaha. aniwae, den melson spent sucha long time cutting the sme piece of chicken which i tot it was fish, even had to cut his fries. -.- well, den saw some church ppl there! haha. funny la. OH! i canort miss tis out. i was actually isolated frm them!! sad sad ): ahahaha. den yea... gab came and definitely more laughter contributed! haha. we even played the eating game. melson called mani ppl and he got chosen and had to eat chips+chilli + cheese + milo freeze. YUCKS MAN. den fl oso came. hahaha. we all pang seh FL and kinda played a lil hide n seek with her! hahahaha. darn funny. den went hme and studied BIO. oh gosh. test 2mr la. k. and here im.

still needa memories the verses and bible reading to be done. i jst cant wait for e hols to come!!! HOLIDAYS AWAITING. . . .

`sabb switches off..

BIG>small

2006-03-05T06:47:00.000-08:00

today, someone, i won't mention, said something dat didn't hurt me but wasnt dat gd to hear though. "Y u wear until lidat.." den i said : "y canot. i look gd ma! (in a jk tone)" den the person was like. . . . . -.- i was like. what la! Like what's wrong with wearing a colourful shirt?! if i feel comfy in it, so be it! Well, this shows, big people doesnt even have the TIME to criticise others but SMALL people have all the time in the world to do so. Well people, its ur choice to be BIG or SMALL.

Today was in usher! I MISS USHERING IN CHEE GEOG'S TEAM! ahaha. people like eugene, joanna, winifred, michYao, zachary, darrel, melvin, jeremy, CHEE GEOG, joey, france, yilin!!! oh man. these ppl are like super nice and funloving to work with la! I LOVE YOU GUYS! haiis. FURTHERMORE!! WE'RE GONNA HAVE USHER TEAM OUTING!!! WOOHOOOO! CANT WAIT! COOL LA! i've nvr went for ani usher outing or anithing. cant wait (:

Well, today nothing special la. BUT! the following days and weeks are so packed la! im gonna PENG SAN la. 1* Go msia for holiday. 2* Go for Bintan Trip. 3* shure got hwm wan lor. OH MY OH MY>!! cant wait to c my cousins! ARGH! miss them lots lots lots! LOL cant wait to hang out with you all. (: CANT WAIT FOR BINTAN TRIP MAN! hahaha. YIIPEEE!

o.k. melson just told me my blog looked PORNO. i was like : NO!! HOW CAN DAT BE?. hey. girls wearing bikini is oight. just dat me myself and frens dun wear dem wad. like hu does?!?! and its DECENT in MY blog k! hahaa.

right, now im totally exhausted and i got more pimples!! ARGH!! gotta get rid of em. so nights OUT!

-sab switches off

2006-02-28T04:36:00.000-08:00

HE"S CUTE!!

CNY

ALISON!! haha.
possessed??
BOOSH! - TING!
ME! EYEBAGS = OCHAE
3 of us
GLAM
going psycho. din slp.
stayed till morning. seriusly.. didn't slp at all. MADOS!

me n my lovely cousin - felicia

HALF DAY!!

jessie, me, grace n celine.

at cine's toilet - ACT bimbo.

at starbucks crapping - i jst love starbucks. and man.. i look retarded!

cine - bus 16 1/2 day east coast mcs. (:

RESULTS!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2006-02-28T03:49:00.000-08:00

OH MY GOODYNESS!! MY RESULTS!! ARGH!! i feel like killing myself. no wait. i canort. bcos i scored only a freaking A2 and the rest B3s n 4s. OH MAN! WHAT HEPPENED!! GOSH! HELP ME O LORD!! ARGH!! im going to realyl buck up for my mid years and all the tests on its way to my face! serious!! dun belive me? wait and c!!! i didn't even hit my target la!! and E-math! OH MY GOSH.. i got a B. can u believe it anort!!?!?!?!??! ARRRRHHHHH!!!

well, im not going in self pity. cos i noe i didn't really put in all my best as i only studied since 5 days b4 oni instead of like the usual 2 or 1 weeks. people may call me a nerd? but lemme tell u wad.. there'll like MORE nerds in 3A! im serius. (no offence). well, yea.

RODERICK IS THE KINDEST FELLA ON EARTH!! he's lending me his (not-so-frequently-in-use) digi cam! its for my bintan trip btw. yepps! SO KIND LA!! aiiyoo. God bless u ok rodd.hhahaha

my ending statement : WE BROKETHROUGH 30!! WOOHOOOOO!! GOD ROCKS!! OUR TEAM ROCKS!! LET'S PURSURE OUR DREAMS AND VISIONS FOR GOD! AMEN!!

`sabb switches off.

BINTAN TRIP!!

2006-02-26T05:36:00.000-08:00

A MISSION TRIP . . NOT A HOLIDAY!

it's gonna be a 3 days 2 night mission trip during the march hols 16-18!! COOL HUH!?!. i havent been to ani mission trip b4. nor have i even been to other countries except for malaysia and INDIA. haha. i cant wait la! well. still.. not a holiday. can c dat its gonna be like a rush. like go orphanage, sleep, eat, build atmosphere, fellowship and so on. gona be great!! impact to the nations!

Today was really WOW. went for service and pastor how preached today. super cool la. although it was still on BIG - REFRESHING! seriously, learnt SO MUCH abt being BIG and SMALL PEOPLE. it was oso like super super funny!!! pastor how is seriusly the most FUN LOVING pastor of course not missing out pastor Lia either. ((: the one that most impcted me was this quote : BIG people have no prob at all submitting to their pastors/leaders but SMALL people wants cheerleaders and when they submit, they feel SMALLER. cool!! its like small people feels that serving is a form of humilitation. like NOT! im like super glad to be in church, in God's presence and in His word.

TOMORROW going get results la! OH MY!! haha. now going to school to pull and attract lower sec students! LOWER GENERATION -- HERE WE COME!!!

now talking to cousin's gf LIANE> to you : don't feel sad or anithing. in times of lonliness - noe that there's always God for you and chris and ME! haha. and ur friends of course! ((: CHEER UP !! i dun really like seeing u in a sad face! haha. i love ur laughter and sweet smile yea? =)

aniwea. i gtg. switching off.......

NEW YEAR 2006!

2006-02-24T21:27:00.000-08:00

HEY PEOPLE! I'M BACK!! yea! sab is back man!

LOL. 1stly, wanna say SORRY that i haven beenupdating my blog since AGES. haha.

2006! WoHOO!! gonna be like POWERFUL! going to go all out for thsoe lost souls and REVIVAL! gonna go closer to the Lord! (:

Well, now i'm in A class which is like darn stressfu. everyone's so competitive - mainly the guys. yea. I remember the 1st few weeks of school jenn was sitting infront of me, grace bside me and hwee san beside jenn. So fun la! Budden MDM RUBINA the RIBENA made jennifer change her sit with jolene ALL THE WAY TO THE FRONT! so far la! haiiyooo. i miss jenn!! (: Sumore grace also being changed to the front and NANDEEEEESH sat bside me. this PMS guy. haha. no la. he's oso super super funny. Got to know people like : Jessie, Celine, Si ting, Zheng Zhun, Lem, PAM PAM. OH! pamela is MY BEST LAUGHING PAL MAN!! she's SO CUTE!! hahahaha. in a bad way i mean. haha. she laughs with her tongue sticking out and her nostrils opening and closing just like the STOMATA of the leaves! hahaha. oh gosh.. too much into bio. NO! im super weak in CHEMISTRY and bio ok. Phy so far ok oni. OH MAN. Every subject is like stressful la! except for english and chinese. GOSH. english class is like SUPER slack. MISS LIAN the babbling fats teacher is like talking to herself all the time! haha. Our Chinese teacher, like wad jenn said, blabbers about CHINA and praises it ALL THE TIME!! so irritating!

My common test just finished. OVER OVER OVER! now results time. OH MAN. i'm not looking forward to it. hhaa. I MISS PERLE! I MISS SHOPPING WITH YOU MY DEAREST!! haha. aww jenn. dun worry. u're oso my dear la k . hah. We had CG outing after my last common test paper : CHINESE AND A-MATH. haha. we went esplanade to eat chocolates and ice-cream. haha. it was fun. ((: i definitely put on a few more pounds!! I miss service man. (: MISS GOD'S PRESENCE! haha.

After our common test day which is friday, me jenn jessie celine and grace went out to town to chill out. Went to cineleisure for branch and movie : PINK PANTHER! THIS SHOW TOTALLY ROCKS MAN!! SUPER SUPER FUNNY OK> haha. before the movie started, we went to the toilet. and jessie started to take pics and all of us started taking. haha. super funny oso. We met FL and her frens who were oso in the sme theatre! haha. den we went window shopping at heeren and met QING. haha. this guy here arh. -.-" haha. We started feeling bored and tired, thus went to STARBUCKS. ordered some drinks, sat down and started talking talking talking till around 5.00 den jenn n jessie had to go for debates com and the 3 of us went hme. On the sme day ,after my ballet, went to mc donalds at east coast at around like 10.30pm. Met grace and celine den wait for the late comers : jenn, jessie, joanne and fann?. yea. haha. they're all super funny. but heard that they lost their debates competition bcos of mainly a guy la. they cried before they came and their eyes were like all swollen and kinda red. haha. CHEER UP YOU GUYS! haha. well, then we headed to the beach and sat on the SUPER fine sand when we bid gdbye to joanne and fann?. yepp. We wanted to count the stars BUT in the end.. we were CLOUDS GAZING. haha. all around us were like couples making out. haha. we're the only PURE ones. jkjk. haha. den we started chatting. Then celine and grace had to go home already, leaving me jenn n jessie. Jenn n i started breakdancing on the sand!! so funny. haha. and jessie started to learn chinese frm us too! how cool is that. WHOAH. the sea breeze was really so cooling and sorta blew my troubles away- the tides drawing in.. so nice! ((: jessie went bac at around 2.00 where me and jenn decided to stay back a lil while. went 7-11 buy drinks (H-two-o) and started chatting - went hme at around 2.45-3.00AM. haha. i just love the beach. Sumore next morning i had to go for SOW at 10.30AM.

OH YES! for CNY celebrations.. HONG BAO HONG BAO HONG BAO! haha. but too bad for me - all in ringgit. ): Well, spent much quality time with my cousins and family. really love em. But this year was kinda boring a lil la. haha. OH! i learnt to play tong hua on the piano in my cousin's house! and her dog is so cute, NAME : BIBI. cute rite!! haha.

Aniway, i shall leave for now.

When God seems distant > (:

2005-11-19T01:31:00.000-08:00

When God seems distant

I will talk about this particular topic for today. Which is what i feel i need it and many people also need to know what to do about this or what is it about. The "it" I am talkin about will be "WHEN GOD SEEMS AWAY FROM YOU". And what do i mean by that -- when YOU don't feel that God is with you.

All of us know that it is SUPER easy to worship him when everything's smooth sailing. However, circumstances are not always pleasant. The deepest level of worship is praising God in spite of PAIN, thanking God during TRIAL, trusting him when TEMPTED, surrendering while SUFFERING and loving him when he SEEMS DISTANT. In your friendship with God, you will not always FEEL close to him. In order to mature your friendship with God, He'll test it with periods of seeming separation -- TIMES WHEN IT FEELS AS IF HE HAS ABANDONED OR FORGOTTEN YOU. God has promised repeatedly "i will NEVER leave you nor forsake you." BUT God didn't say "You will always feel my presence." This is a normal part of the testing and maturing of your friendship with God. It is painful and disconcerting at times but it is absolutely VITAL for the DEVELOPMENT OF YOUR FAITH!!!

When God seems far away, you may think that he is angry with you for some sin. Infact, sin DOES disconnect you from intimate fellowship with God. But often this feeling of abandonment from God has NOTHING to do with sin. It is simple : A TEST OF FAITH. Will you continue to love, trust, obey and worship God even when you have no sense of his presence or visible evidence of his work in your life? Many christians want to experience and not seek God. Seeking a feeling is not worship! So what can you do about it?

1) Tell God exactly how you feel

-pour it all out from your heart

-admitting your hopelesness to God is also a statement of FAITH!

-By being frank reveals deep faith.

2) Focus on God's never changing nature

-"He is good, he loves me, he is with me, he knows what i'm going through, he cares, he has a good plan for my life" remind yourself this.

-Never doubt in the dark what God told you in the light!

3) Trust God to keep his promises

-Patiently rely on God's promises and not your own emotions.

-Don't be troubled by troubles! Circumstances cannot change the character of God.

-His grace is still in FULL FORCE!

-Trust His Word and be strong in the midst of your pain.

-*When you feel abandoned by God yet continue to trust him inspite of your feeings, you worship him in the deepest way!

4)Remember what God has already done for you

-If God never did anything else for you, he would still deserve your continual praise for the rest of your life. WHY?? because GOD'S SON DIED FOR YOU ON THE CROSS. and this is the GREATEST reason for worship.

-Unfortunately, many forget the cruel details of the agonizing sacrifice God made on our behalf : Even before his crucifixtion, the Son of God, was stripped naked, mocked, crowned with thorns, and spit on contemptuously. Abused and ridiculed by heartless men, he was treated worse than an animal. Then nearly unconcsious from blood loss, he was forced to drag a cumbersome cross up a hill, was nailed to it and was left to die the slow excruciating torture of death by crucifixtion. While his lifeblood drained out, hecklers stood by and shouted insults, making fun of his pain and challenging his claim to be God. ='(

-Jesus could have saved himself. BUT if he saved himself, he would not have saved us. Why did God allow these things to happen to Jesus? WHY? So that we can spend eternity in heaven instead of Hell and so that we can share in his glory forever!!!

-Jesus died so you could live FOREVER. And that alone is worthy of your continual thanks.

WORSHIPPING HIM> ((:

2005-11-10T14:12:00.000-08:00

WORSHIP

I jst read one of the chpters of the book and i've decided to blog abt it. This book is really driving my crazy! I love it so much. ok. here it is. the topic is worship.

Worship is to bring pleasure to God. Worship is like a universal urge, hard-wired by Godinto the very fibre of our being -- an inbuilt need to connect with God. Worship is very natural jst like breathing and eating. God made us with this desire is that he desires worshippers! You may think that "worship" is jst singing, praying, listening to a sermon. It includes these but is FAR MORE than these expressions! WORSHIP IS A LIFESTYLE!

Worship is also far more than jst music alone. Every part of a church service is an act of worship!!! eg: pray, sing, giving offering, taking down notes, confession, silence, being still, listening to sermon, baptism and so on. Actually, worship only predates music. If worship is jst music then all those who are nonmusical can never worship! Even worse, worship is often misused to refer to a particular STYLE of music.

eg:

" I like the fast praise songs but enjoy the slow worship songs the most" In this usage rite, if a song is fast or loud or brass instruments, it's considered "praise". But if it is slow and quiet that's worship."

This is the common misuse of the term "worship"!!! which is wrong la.

Worship has nothing to do with the speed or volume or tune but worship is when you offer it to God in SPIRIT and TRUTH. Then this is the ACT of worship. There's also no such thing as christian music. There are only christian LYRICS. It is the words that make a song sacred not the tune! If i played a song for you without the words, u'de have no way of knowing if it were a "Christian song".

WORSHIP IS NOT FOR YOUR BENEFIT BUT IT IS TO BRING PLEASURE TO GOD NOT OURSELVES!!! OUR MOTIVE IS TO BRING GLORY AND PLEASURE TO OUR CREATOR. GOD COMPLAINS ABT WORSHIP THAT IS HALF-HEARTED AND HYPOCRITICAL. THE PEOPLE WERE OFFERING GOD STALE PRAYERS, INSINCERE PRAISE, EMPTY WORDS AND MAN-MADE RITUALS WITHOUT EVEN THINKING ABT THE MEANING!!! GOD'S HEART IS NOT TOUCHED BY TRADITION IN WORSHIP, BUT BY PASSION AND COMMITTMENT. Worship is not part of our lives but it IS our lives. Praise and worship him at ALL times man.

Do you know that EVERY activity can be transformed into an act of worship when you do it for the praise, glory and pleasure of God. So you may ask.. How issit possible to do everything to the GLORY of God? well. it is by doing everything as if you were doing it for JESUS and by carrying on a continual conversation with Him while you do it! WORK BECOMES WORSHIP WHEN YOU DEDICATE IT TO GOD AND PERFORM IT WITH AN AWARENESS OF HIS PRESENCE.

This is what REAL worship is all abt -- falling in love with Jesus

`it is all abt u not me

`i was made for ur pleasure

`you are what drives my life

`YOU ARE MY PURPOSE

sabb.

pondering.

2005-11-09T20:42:00.000-08:00

Recently, i read a book called : Purpose driven life. It is truely a great book. (: I'm really impacted and this particular chapter set my mind thinking. Basically, it says here in this chapter that "WE COME DOWN TO EARTH JUST FOR A TEMPORARY ASSIGNMENT".

Comapared with eternity, life is extremely brief! It is only a temporary residence. thus we cannot be too attached to anything on earth. And how do we do that? By praying to Him to help us see life on earth as He sees it. Earth is not our permanent home or final destination but heaven is. Heaven is our REAL HOME. We're a foreigner/visitor of heaven to earth. God says that His children are to think differently from the way unbelievers think. Why? Because real believers understand that there is far more to life than just the few years we live on this planet. Your identity is in eternity and your homeland is in heaven.

"God warns us to not get too attached to what's around us because it is temporary."
"The things we see now are here today, gone tomorrow. But the things we can't see now will last forever."

Earth is not our ultimate home which explains why we experience difficulty, sorrow and rejection of this world. To keep us frm being too attached to earth, God allows us to feel a significant amt of discontent and dissatisfaction in life. The abundant life has nothing to do with material abundance and faithfulness to God doesn't guarantee success in career or even in ministry. NEVER FOCUS ON TEMPORARY CROWNS.
`Paul was faithful yet he ended up in prison
`John was faithful but yet he was beheaded
But the end of life is not yet the end but the beginning of eternal life!!!

In God's eyes, the greatest heroes of faith are not those who achieve prosperity, success, and power in this life but hose who treat this life as a temporary assignment and serve faithfully, expecting their promised reward in eternity! and it takes F A I T H to live here as a foreigner and not a citizen.

WHEN LIFE GOES TOUGH, WHEN YOU'RE OVERWHELMED WITH DOUBT, OR WHEN YOU WONDER IF LIVING FOR CHRIST IS WORTH THE EFFORT, REMEMBER THAT YOU'RE NOT HOME YET. AT DEATH, YOU WON'T LEAVE HOME -- YOU'LL GO HOME.

wow. isn't it just WOW. It's unfortunate that many people think earth is their real true home and career, success, fame etc are jst TEMPORARY! these won't follow u up to heaven! FAITH. HOPE. LOVE will follow you up. The task for evangelism follows you up. The completion of the assignements He's made for u will follow you up there! most important of all, your relationship with GOD will follow you up for eternity! Do you know what is the meaning of ETERNITY?? it means FOREVER! meaning.. NEVER ENDING!! If you choose to be attached to the worldly things, if you are not a believer, u'll never go up there. instead.. DOWN THERE. All of us have a choice. What's your choice?

`believer
`faith
`love
`hope

sabrina!

BIG CAMP!

2005-11-03T13:13:00.000-08:00

B I G

For the past few days i havern been blogging at all bcos i went for CHURCH BIG CAMP! it was totally rocking man. i love it so much! well. on the 1st day, we were kinda late but still not dat late lar haha. den we were put into our camp team (grps). so i was in yi lin's team. it was a pleasure to be in her team. however.. i was the only one frm C5 to be in the team. i felt odd lar. but i soon got to know many of them like yan qing, jacqueline, ah cai, jacky and many others frm other teams too! it was really great!! fun fun fun! laughter peace and joy! WOOSH! haha. we played many many many games which were really fun and meaningful. my favourites were the wet games! haha. and the sermon by pastors were impactful and WOW. truely WOW. this is jst a brief summary lar. haha

1st night

1) BIG hearted

love those unlovable ones. love your enemies!!! Even God is kind to evil.be merciful then. (: There is no credit to those that you love and expecting them to love you back! that is a natural reaction of even sinners! thus.. love the unlovable. Love requires an action it is not intengible. Win them over by the love and power of God. No matter how unlovable they are.. you still gotta love them! touch their hearts! fill those empty vessels! GROW BIG IN OUR HEARTS! they all need the love of God.

2) BIG minded

Don't be small minded, petty people. BE BIG and fight the devil! Big people have Big talks, small people have small talks. thus DO NOT GOSSIP! bcos you don't even have the time to gossip! make use of the time to do something else more spiritual and useful!!! BIG PEOPLE HAVE NO TIME TO GOSSIP!!! talk abt dreams and visions! get your natural tendency to do spiritual things!

3) BIG givers

Need to start giving. eg: offering, tiding, building fund. give more than you enjoy!!! build up this building attitute. God cannot bless and give us if we're stingy! be big givers and God will bless you back. it's the sincerity and heart that all counts.

4) BIG capacity

Handle families, spiritual life, studies and church committment all at the same time! sacrifice all distractions! enlarge your capacity! we have to be more efficient and effective so FOCUS!!! proverbs 23:7

if you think you can do it you can! if you think you cannot do it you can't!! big people think differently from odinary people! we think BIG!!!

isaiah 55: 8-9

God is a huge thinker! christians are people with BIG thoughts! our thinking mst change to be BIG!

*Matthew 14: 24-29

in here. peter walked on water!!! He conceived a BIG thought

Eph 3:20

Whatever you think, He'll match it. God likes faith and Big thinkers! IF YOU THINK YOU CAN.. YOU DEFINITELY CAN!!!

well. the 2nd and third night i shall continue another day.

This camp was really impactful! God ministered to me and i believe my dream and vision will come to pass! THINK BIG! BE BIG! GROW BIG! WOOHOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!

In him,

Sabb.

TK REVIVAL

2005-10-25T22:39:00.000-07:00

REVIVAL in TK

Just now had conference with chiwen and e girls in TK. mistake : NOT UNITED!! we've always been separated and not united enough. And this is partly also MY fault. I m too dependent on my other friends that is bcos of my own interest and cos i was scared i felt lonely or sumthing. BUT. that is : SELFISH. " this is only about caring for yourself". So many unsaved lives are in my hands and bcos of these temporary stuffs i gave them all up. I didn't have the courage to not not depend too much on them. i need to change that. THERE IS NO TIME!! like wad pastor How said. NO TIME IS LEFT. I'm sry chiwen, kaisheng, gab, ivan. After all your hardwork and talks.. we oni made improvements like some time then no more already. WE'RE GOING TO WORK HARD AND BE MORE UNITED. not jst by words.. we're all gonna show it TK PPL!!

LET THE TK REVIVAL CONTINUE!!!!!!

RESULTS

i would say i could have done better this time. But.. i'll strive again nxt year in tripple wif jenn! ((: and in level position.. she's 9 im 8. how cool is dat!!!

TALENT SEARCH

Well. 2mr's BIG DAY!! haha. pray that many ppl will vote for us. BUT.. if we reali canort make it.. it's alright. like wad all of us said : IT"S ALL PURELY BCOS OF THE FUN OF IT!!! Let's dance our best!!!

SERMON

last sunday's sermon was indeed WOW. it really BOOM and BAAM many ppl man!!! roderick's saved!!! WOOHOOOO! -claps- Pastor sermon was truely GREAT ok. it's all about our heart as a beliveing machine. We are all valuable! God didn't make us or create us to compare with others and these people are named insecure people. INTRINSIC VALUE - love someone for who he/she is as all of us have values!!! People put price tags on us! they judge us. Thus we all need to understand the value that God gave to all of us. Some people always think that God doesn't care about them.. u're wrong. HE DOES. and he knows EVERYTHING. HE IS A GREAT GOD. and im speaking frm experience through prayer and the word of God.. everyting can be solved. and my problem is SOLVED!! im reali elated and grateful till im speechless.

Thus God values us even if we have many impurities or sins. no matter how many times we "blow our dives", Father in heaven will still love you. We shouldnt have this giult complex thus come to him right now and be cleansed. *DON'T LET PEOPLE ; SYSTEMS OR CIRCUMSTANCES INFLUENCE YOUR ESTIMATION OF YOUR VALUE!! many people do not know their value! all of us are valued equally by God!! no one is more important than the other. Those people who think of ending their lives.. DON'T. u're jst wasting it! you could spend those times getting those unsaved people saved! think about it. which is more worth it. Having to die and lose your life straight away? or to do your best to save those unsaved!?!. obviously the answer is no. 2 rite. c'mon! WAKE UP!!! GOD STILL LOVES YOU NO MATTER WHAT YOU HAVE DONE!

That's all for today i guess.

Keep growing in God.

sabriina.

AFTER EXAMS!!! FINALLY!!

2005-10-16T23:15:00.000-07:00

GUESS WAD!! ITS AFTER THE EXAMS!! whoahh. so cool la. but its still gonna be super bz lar. haha. basically.. there'll be like bible studies, camp, outings, tranings comin up!! SO COOL RITE!! i know. hahaha. well. i reali havern been blogging super long larhhs.

EXAMS
all subjects done. it is finished. lol. thus.. not gonna talk abt it and spoil my after-the-exam mood. haha. one word : FAITH

I've been feeling lost and confused over everything everywhere. i jst dun like that feeling. What gabriel said in his blog was really true. I am jst dat fren. I m jst dat person. ): i wanna change. i wanna change for the better to the best. i dun wanna be the sme old ME. i've always been feeling OUT all of a sudd. happy on the outside i seem.. but not in e inside. I always have that mindset that i'm always not living up to others' expectations. BUT> the prob is.. i've not even lived up to MY own expectations. yepps. so i'm gonna change ME and gonna DRAW ppl into church wif my 'new' character. I was jealous-low esteem- pmsin- giving a grouchy face-giving a pissed of face-. these were my 'bad points'. yea. so im gona GET RID OF ALL OF EM THRU GOD!! and the holy spirit!!! I've actualli done something not nice to gab la. sorta 'shouted' at him wif CAPSLOCKS. i m sorry. i've also not obeyed leaders' orders or instructions faithfully and immediately, thus got it by chiwen. I took these too hard and broke down. but right here right now, i jst wanna say that i WILL change and BE A NEW SABRINA!!!!!

and... TODAY'S CHARLESTON'S BDAE!! cool rite!!! WOOOHOOO la. hahaha. we were in dance. whoahhs. the make up super cool and rockin. Now i miss it man. it was actualli my first time at least participating in something 'big' in church. ((: gonna miss it alot. love the ppl in TANGO-MANGO dance too. adriena, roslyn (rocks), zach, eugene, gina, joanna, zhuo'er, yilin and esther. had so much great time wif these guys!

My dad prob. hasn't solved yet. BUT. i do not need console or wadsoever.. bcos.. all i need is GOD's word and for the strength and BOLDNESS to stand up for myself. gab, ivan, charleston, chiwen, IM GONNA PROVE THAT I'LL STAY!!! I WILL. i wun let these things pull me away frm God. Everyone makes sacrifices.. so do i. GOD IS AMAZING.

In him,
sabb

MINISTRY. ((:

2005-10-02T22:07:00.000-07:00

HAVE FAITH IN HIM. KNOW THE REVELATION IN HIS CHARACTER! DON'T LET THE DEVIL TEMPT YOU! DON'T GIVE IN TO TEMPTATIONS! KNOW THAT HE IS OUR 100% GOOD GOD! KNOW THAT HE'S ALWAYS THERE FOR US AND THAT HE CARES FOR US NO MATTER WHERE WE ARE!!! HE IS A 100% GOOD GOD!! yea!!!

well. that was a short summary on what pastor Lia preached today. WOW. so great. so impactful. i'm shure many people were impacted by this sermon. And today.. the best thing was that there was ministry! WOOHOOOO!. Charleston prayed for me this time. now.. let me tell you how i felt. actualli.. when pst lia said : those who had experience difficulties during the past 4 months or so.. come out now.." something lidat. Then i didn't know if i should go anort. so i nudged michelle .. she turned and said.. " i follow u. go now." then mee han oso went with me. I was reali scared that pst didn't wanna pray for me. I wanted to run back to my seat when i was up there infront of the stage. but meehan pushed me up. Then charleston came. and prayed. I wanted to fall! budden i was afraid that if i fell, there wasnt anione to catch me. I was worried. The power of God was reali so strong that i resisted it by jst moving back with my legs. Then charleston said to fall under the power of God. and i did. HOWEVER. the catcher bhind me caught oni one arm.. which caused me to fall HARD on my *herm* and my head knocked on the legs of the chair. OUCH! haha. but it was alright aniwae. Then when i got up and went to the side. Pst How came, and said many things to me. I was shocked that he came to talk to me and that his words really meant alot to me. (; here. i wanna say : thank you so much pst how, pst lia and charleston. i duno wad else to say bsides my gratitute towards you. ((:

Now, i've finished studyin for the relevant chapters for my exam.. dats y i had a chance to blog. well. I hope that you guys out there.. who aren't saved yet to let God enter your lives. Bcos.. your life will nvr be the same again.

.STAND STRONG. [dats for me].
.BELIEVE IN HIM.
.FEAR HIM.
.FAITH.

sabrina.
the woman of God and his child for eternity.

exams COMING NOW!!! haha. exactly 1 week left!!!

2005-09-26T22:40:00.000-07:00

Well, there is only a week left to revise EVERYTHING. i know i can make it. bcos...... of one word.. and that is.... ... F A I TH! haha. i jst realii love this word. although the 2 tests i felt i could have done better.. for the nxt time round.. which is SA. MY FAITH LEVEL WILL ALLOW ME TO DO MY ULTIMATE BEST!!. loll.

2day was quite rush. i actually didn't wanna go ballet. cos to study science and math. but come to think of it. i would relax for mond nite and CHIONG for the next 1 week!!! WOOHOOOOOOO! GOD WILL ANSWER ALL PREAYERS!! lol. i love my life. i love God. I love my frens. I love everything!! lol.

Dyu noe something, i used to think i wasn't good enuff for anything. I used to think i was a failure once i "fell" or once i did something small wrong. however.. there are struggles and problems for us.. so that we can learn and make them our strength!! God put us through difficulties to test our loyalty and also faith and my more. so let's do our best in what ever we do! the last sermon rite.. is abt faith which changed my way of perspective thinking. i really changed in thinking man. haha. that's all i can say. I LOVE MYSELF TOO! loll. bhb rite.

Now my mind is full of these 2 things : GOD and STUDY! haha. i reali wanna give out all my best for this final year. that's y this is my last day bloggin till the end of exams. gonna miss blggin. haha. ((: ANIWAE. LET US ALL BE AT A NEW LEVEL OF FAITH TO CONQUER ALL THE EXAMS AND GLORIFY GOD !! ((:

sabb``

wad a great sermon!!! haha. FAITH!!!

2005-09-25T22:56:00.000-07:00

Basically today in church pastor Lia preached on FAITH. It really impacted me. cos my faith level to God was really going down and down and down. About this sermon was also of worries & doubts and that we have a choice if we wanna have faith or not!! isn't that great!?!! doubts come uninvitingly and is also a natural response right.. however! Faith is a decision we all make to believe in God!! So sisters and brothers!! let's renew our faith in God once more!. Faith connects us more with God. FAITH IS ALL ABOUT BELIEVING THE TRUTH! and u know that the truth nvr changes. yup! Abt worrying - God says DO NOT worry not "try ur best not to worry". When u worry, there's little faith and hope!! so when u choose to have faith -> worries will all be diminished!!!. So let's start to expect miracles frm God with a whole new level of faith! WOOHOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!.

Well, today and ytd i was on usher lar. hmms. it didn't go really smoothly. There were many mistakes that we will improve on as Huiting was disappointed in us. ): BUT! i have FAITH that we'll do even better and to our maximum point!!! WE'LL ALL BE THINKERS!

Ytd night i had a quarrel with my mother lar. And it went really badly. well.. today, while i was arranging the chairs in the audi- she came in. and gave me a huge hug. and both of us cried. )': yea. it was great lar. cos i sent her a sorry sms. hehe. now sms is really working. LOL.

Now i m feeling so much happier as i CHOSE to HAVE FAITH!! hahaha. and studyin is now a JOY to me. right?!?! hehehe. yes! haha. ok. now this is going wierd.. cos.. im talking to myself! haha. aniway.. FINALS is jst 1 week away. I'LL STRIVE FOR MY VERY BEST AND SCORE WELL!!

His child,
sabb`

SMSes really helps. thanks gabriel and ivan. ((:

2005-09-14T22:07:00.000-07:00

"For you have possessed my inward parts; You have converted me in my mother's womb. I will praise You; For i am fearfully and wonderfully made; Your works are marvellous and my soulknows it very well. My bones were not hidden from You when i was made in secret and skillfully formed in the lowest parts of the earth. Your eyes saw my embryo; and in Your book all my members were written, the days they were formed, and not one was among them"

Psalm 139: 13-16

This was from gabriel's sms. its like - WOW and WHOAH. it really HIT me. It means God made all of us : bones, tissues and cells. Even before we were all born, He already planned everything. its still like WHOAHHS!!!. what a verse. Well. my previous entry was kinda wierd for myself too. I also donno y i typed that.

In school, i feel that i don't have any really close friends that i can relate to and REALLY share my REAL problems instead of gossiping [sin]. I have many GOOD frens but not really close. It's either i tell them my problems and they don't bother or they jst tell me their probs and don't listen. Besides chiwen, gab, ivan, mich, there's really no one else i can tell my REAL problems to. im serious. i know its pathetic.. but however.. i somehow feel that im really fortunate to have such great leaders and friend. ((: I feel lonely sometimes.. but i know that i shouldnt feel that way - cos God is my best friend forever. People might say bad things abt me, but i know that as long i've done right things, i don't haf to care abt wad they sae abt me. "i dun care wad dey say abt me. It's alright. It's alright" dats a song. ((:

I jst finished studyin history chpt 8 and chi spelling. hmms. super scared for SAs and guess wad --> FINALLY FINISH IPW!! REJOICE! hahaha. BUT on friday.. there's still one more thing .. BALLET EXAM! im really scared ok. loll. but i mst have faith as i have practiced so hard for this dae (fri).

I really canort wait to go for sunday service again and really canort wait for EXAMS to be over!! den frm then on.. i pray that time passes slowly before end of the year comes.

Anyway. i needa go to 10.10 prayer now. NITES!!!

sabb!!

<3>

His child

FEAR

2005-09-13T23:01:00.000-07:00

During today's 10.10 prayer, i was reali cryin badly. I really didn't want to go back. )': it hurts. I cannot go back to my old self. The selfish-jealous-no self-esteem person. bcos i know that God will always be here to tell me that i shant to dat. I really don't want to leave. Leaving means not able to be around with the family of God. Not able to be around IN God's home. Not able to serve him. does this mean that in the future i'm going to be a backslider?

Sometimes, it really hurts me as i think back on what my dad said. I WILL NOT BE MOVED BY IT anyway. because it isn't true and that i mst have faith in the Lord. I think this is one of the biggest problems that is on me right now and that it had really affected me. esp the leaders' advices. it was really helpful. Altho i heard that im rising up.. i still know that it won't be for long. cos after a few short months.. i'll be gone. and i don't have a single chance. )': thinking abt all these things really makes me cry. I'll try not to think of all these by really putting a smile on my face and trying real hard not to cry.

I keep thinking that im jst not good enought to be rising up. or in the first place.. was I ? was i jst one person who take care of samm jst because im sitting bside in class? do i really have the qualities?. maybe not. )': i jst feel odd/wierd/sad. im not happy today and neither was ytd. there are these things inside my heart for many times. i reali wanna get them off ALL OF THEM NOW!! problems come and go. i know. but these are always in my heart. and will never go.unless someone answers them. and that will be God. i know he'll answer me one day. and i'll wait for that day to come.

God please help me.
-cryin-

as i am typing all these my tears are jst coming down and down. it jst cant stop. jealousness is the sin that i have now. and i WILL GET THAT OFF!! no matter what happens.. i know that God will always be bside. There was really this time when i thought i shuoldnt go to church animore. however.. i jst went. it was a stupid thot. it was foolish. it was the DEVIL. GO AWAY!!!

I don't wanna live in a life full of fears and a continuous listings of thoughts that are never ending. LORD..

I remembered i used to be a very negative person. always thinking of the bad things dat would happen to me and nothing gd will happen to me. dat was my past. But now.. i do not know if this will 'return' back. I PRAY NOT.

i don't feel like typing animore. i'll reali haf to end here.

ivan and gabriel. thanks

2005-09-08T01:20:00.000-07:00

Someone was reading the bible.. and shared wif me this.

Matthew 5:11-12
Blessed are you when people insult you, persecute you and fasely say all kinds of evil against you because of me. Rejoice and be glad, because great is your reward in heaven, for in the same way they persecuted the prophets who were before you.

He said this meant to rejoice in persecution and that I am on the right track and that I am experiencing the same thing of those prophets and even Jesus. This reali impacted me greatly. It sanked into me right away. I reali like this verse.

the second verse that reali sank in was frm
2 Timothy 1:10-11
He has deliver us from such a deadly peril, and he will deliver us. On him we have set our hope that he will continue to deliver us, as you help us by your prayers. Then many will give thanks on our behalf for the gracious favour granted us in answer to the prayers of many.

This means that when God gives you tests. Stay strong and don't give up half way. It's like the school giving us exams and without exams, what for do we learn?. something like that. haha. yea. its reali great hearing these things that are really useful to my situtation right now. ((:
i reali want to thank that 1 and 1 person. means.. 2 people lar. haha. yepps. ivan and gabriel. although this thing isn't solved yet. but i'm shure it will soon.

this will be what i'll be blogging for today. as this is what i've been thinking abt the whole day. i shall not add on for today. ((: slpy time! NITES!

sabb!

):

2005-09-06T12:41:00.000-07:00

i m jst inspired by gabriel's and ivan's smses. its reali great. i jst feel IT. i duno y. i felt that i cudnt concentrate on my studies during the past few days due to personal irritating reasons... but i soon got that off my mind with God's help. and im shure the Holy spirit is guiding me right now. ((: WOOHOOOOOOOOO``

this holiday is reali a rush man. i was like super bz wif studyin-ballet. hahahaha. hmmm.. now my ballet exam is reali near. and im scared nervous mixed wif other feelings!!! AAARRRGGHHH!! hahaha. im reali stressed up lorhs. haha.

basically during the past few days.. i've been pondering over many things in my life right now. i wudnt sae wad probs. but its reali stressful and horrible. altho these probs may seem small to others.. but to me.. its not. its relai HUGE haha. ): i feel as if the devil is drawing me away. BUT! i won't let dat ever happen!!!!!!!!!!!!!! bcos.. he is under God's feet!!!!!!!

I also feel like saying this.. i love reading leaders' blogs. its reali reali super super inspiring : chiwen and ivan. gab nvr update der. ahaha. loll. there are reali many things to learn frm the entries and many valuable lessons to draw out frm. i reali enjoy reading them. Although these problems are in my head right now.. i pray that i'll not get distracted frm these!

Now that problems start to get solved, i feel much more relieved altho there are more. ): but i noe.. God will always be bside me - holy spirit will always be guiding me and leading me to always do the right things. i know that no matter wad.. God won't forsake me or abandon me as He put us through these problems.. to TEST us. and eventualli HE WILL SOLVE IT. haha. and dat is frm ivan and gabriel i tink. haha. its reali great! ((:

Over the weekend i went to JB to spend time wif my daddy. it was reali great! ((: and 2mr morning still have to go Joan's hse for IPW den go ballet wif Hwee San. den go church meet ivan to talk abt some stuffs. SUPER BZ! but lucky i have thurs totali free to revise and study!! haha. i reali pray that my L1R5 will go lower. cos lower e better rite. haha.

Now that my relationship with my mother is much better. i feel oso much better! WOOHOOO!

aniwae. i needa go ler. haha. update again! niteyys!!!

sabb-
<3>
forever in his embrace``
His child

lllll c0 p y rig ht ed lll

god talking to me heart to heart. wonderful. =))

2005-09-01T23:07:00.000-07:00

WONDERFUL GOD

wonderful God

U're wonderful Oh God

Wonderful God

Wonderful, Oh God.

You are worthy of all glory

All honour and all praise

all to you our God

forever and always

You are worthy of our worship

And worthy of our Love

We stand in awe

of all u are

beautiful is your creation

u're glorious in everyway

You surround us with ur faithful love

and we can trust in all you say

U are life

You are all glorious

ok. for the next 3 days. its gonna be real bz for me. im gonna go ballet at Bkt. timah, den go church for Friday night prayer meeting den rush to JB to meet my dad. then spend time with him... study .. then come back ballet on sat and Go back JB again. sian sia. den sundae den i'l come back. but ... i canort wait to c my daddy again. cos today is his bdae!!!!! HAPPY BDAE MY DADDY!!.

I have been really packed these days. feeling like ... STRESS!! hahaha. but in a gd wae tho. loll. today when i did 10.10. i felt God talking to me again. it was reali gd to hear His soft voice. I wunt mention wad He said to me. but all i noe is dat i'll not do the sme thing again. it reali hurt him. ): aniwae. i find the email dat gabriel send inspiring. i totally agree that :

It's not God versus the devil. It is US defeating the devil.
If God is for us, so who can be against us?
We can stop the devil in Jesus' name! Anytime, anywhere!
We will OVERCOME all odds and obstacles!

yes!! and this :

The devil is NOT attacking us. In fact, we are plundering hades and getting souls saved!
He is on the defence!

it is so true!!! well. yea. dats abt it.

Now its like samantha's back in church. and i reali pray that she'll stay. ((: Sumore today me, samm, pon and soph went out. so cool fun and SHIOK! hahaha. went watch movie-neos-arcade-shop-eat. WOOHOOOOOOO~ hahaha. den after the movie i met kai sheng and 2 more people frm church. haha. cool rite!!! hahaha. so QIAO lor! ((: dey sae the east is more happening than the north. hahaha. yae``

aniwae. i needa go slp. 2mr still got sch. niteyys!!

learnt lessons.

2005-08-26T23:53:00.000-07:00

Basically. i've changed my blogskin!! cool rite. i noe lar. haha. well. i've learnt kinda alot of things through reading mani other peoples' blog entries. esp our leaders ones. its reali inspiring!!. like wad chiwen saed in her blog : we canort treat God like a rubbish or trash and jst treat him like a stepping stone. NO! because HE IS OUR GOD!. he is the almighty and our saviour. He purifies and cleans those who surrender their lives to Him. He shed His blood for us jst to save us. But--> now.. look around u. there are so many other people who is treating Him like a nobody. He is hurt. He wants all to be saved. but the devil is stopping that. STOOPIIID DEVIL!!! however.. God knows how to deal with the EVIL .. and GOD WILL WIN and the devil will always be under His feet!

I've gotten back my results. and im feeling super disappointed lar. i dun tink i'll maintain my results animore. )): HOWEVER! this would be a lesson to me. i will not let this bring me down! i jst wanna tell u guys out there is that when u fall. u mst pick urself up. don't stay down forever cos its not gonna help. strive for the best and study even harder! show to ur parents and frens and God that U CAN DO IT! haha. so.. dats wad i sae to myself whenever i dun reali do well in my tests or exams. and it reali helps alot ok! haha. it reali takes alot of self discipline to study alot and im shure dat i can do dat once more for my finals! im now currently already started my revision for the finals. and i pray that i will DO AS WELL OR EVEN BETTER than my mid-yrs. i reali wanna score well. altho i duno wad will happen to me at the end of the yr .. altho i duno where i will end up- i will study HARD HARD HARD no matter wad! ((:

Now my ballet exam is coming reali raeli soon!! its on the 16th sept ok! and now's like.. haiiyooOO. so near lor! but i haf confidence as long as i practice alot! (: even tho im sick todae.. i still go for ballet. and MODERN line-dancin.. i reali fine a joy in dancing. and singin! its like dancing and singing for the Lord above there. ((: i reali wanna experience how its like to dance and sing with joy infront of Him.

subjects that i started revising. :

#Maths : assessment books. -algebra. graphs. trigo ratio. pyth.

#chinese : all cheng yu + 16-23 ke.

#science : heat transfer. light+refraction+reflection. chapt 6. transport.

#literature : read through story.

#geog : havern yet.

#history : havern yet.

#english : oso havern yet.

There's so much more to learn and recap!! so i don't c y people still can play games all day and go out when SAs are like a few weeks away oni!!

and 2mr we're celebrating PST. HOW's bdae!! i cant wait sia. hahaha. i was acting in a video. which totally rocks ok! hahaha. 2mr u'll c how i act. dumbo. hahahaha. ((: oyes! and 2mr im gonna bring samantha to church!! we're gonna watch the maid b4 we go lar. haha. n chiwen's coming along too!! haha. cant wait !! ((:

-days of living for God nvr ends* ^^

lllll c0 pY rig ht ed (X ll

haiiyoo. sick!! ARHHH!!!

2005-08-26T19:09:00.000-07:00

hmm. so longg nvr blog ler. now im slacking at night. hahaha. todae im sick sick sick!!! had fever cough flu and slight sore throat!!! now how bad can dat sound .. REALLY BAD!!! haha. haiis. todae din go sch but GOT MC!! haha. studiied like siao at hme lorhs. ((:

during the past days. i havent been reali communicating with my mummy well. basically she was veyr angry about my results larhs. and she blamed it on EVERYONE AND ME! haiiyooOO. den the quarrel started. shout here shout there.... in the car at home. HAIYO! then in the morning decided to take bus instead of her car.. met chiwen at the bustop then veyr farnie. one time i stppped at the wrong stop.. den had to WALK ALL THE WAY BACK ! haha. and dat time i was already sick ler lorhs. hahaha. wel.. den my mummy smsed me.. she said sorry for being too harsh and sumoresumoresumore thinsg dat i shant sae here.

SO HERE I M TO BUCK UP IN MY STUDIES AND SHOW HER THAT I CAN DO IT!! LORD SHALL HELP ME WITH THIS !!! ((:

i feel sick! sick! haiis. aniwae. i lazy type ler lorhs. ((:

haha. YAE AFTER CAs!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2005-08-19T11:59:00.000-07:00

well. now the best thing that its AFTER CAs ler!! WOOHOOOOOOOOOOOOO~ its so rejoiceful. however.. now the interesting part comes. --> RESULTS!!!!! i gotten back my literature and chinese results so far on thursdae! lit now totally rocks!! but not chinese!!!hahaha. i felt that i could haf done much mroe better lar. but i noe thatthere's still one more chance --> SA!!! i will strive for the best!!! ... ((: i cant wait for exams to come again and get over and done with it!!hahaha.

hmmm. now im in church typing all these out. andnow im gonna tok abt my followup wif ivan and chiwen. totally rocking man.. haha. todae we talked abt parables. it was reali great lar. it is like a story that values/principles/morals can be learnt frm it. there is the sower and the seed. the sower would be god and the seed would be the WORD ofgod. yup!! there are many types of grounds where seeds can grow rite.. so there are the wayside-stony-thorny and GOOD GROUNDS!! hahaha. i would be in planted in the GOOD GROUND and GROW MORE!! money canoort buy everything and that wecanort be materialistic -->> PUT OUR DESIRES AWAY!! YAEEEE~

basically yesterdae i touched on my books for study rule and to prepare for final yr exams. done 3 hrs of study ytd of chi and math. i feel glad and haf a feel of "satisfaction" after i finished them. in the afternoon, we went to FL's hse to visit her cos she's sick!!! here.. PRAY u'll get well!!! now i contracted the virus!!! ((: hhaha. but god'll heal us. her hse is like SO BIG!!!haha.jst cant wait to go church 2mr again!!!!!!!

aniwae. i need to go. hahaha. slack around!!

_________-=God loves his little children=-__________

<3>

sabb-``

2mr's history and chinese exam!! ARGH!! CAs!! STRESS!!

2005-08-15T23:05:00.000-07:00

`--=angels. ((:

actualli rite. i dun even noe tis baby lea. hahaha. nonono.. its my cousin lar. hahah!!! aniwae. i tink this is a reali cute pic!! so i jst put here lor!! ((:

WORTHY IS THE LAMB

Thank you for the cross lord,

thank you for the price you paid.

Bearing all my sin and shame,

in love You came and gave amazing grace.

Thanks you for this love Lord,

thank you for the nail pierced hands.

Washed me in Your cleansing flow,

now all i know,

your forgiveness and embrace.

Worthy is the lamb seated on the throne.

Crown You now and lifted up,

Jesus Son of God.

The darling of heaven crucified

Worthy is the lamb,

Worthy is the lamb.

hmmms. todae is a MONDAE!! and YAEEEEE~ science paper finalli is OVER! and i dun tink i'll do well tho. haiis. -cries-> however.. get to think of the bright side.. there's still SAs!! haha. n 2mr is my history and chinese test. i tink i've reali prepared well for bof of them. now i reali pray for me to do well and all those frens out there lord. :D

todae.. nothing much happened lar. jst dat after science rite. we, the girls of class 2E, got scolded by BBS --> babuseng!! mr singh lar. so bad riite. hahaha. hmmmmm.. we had our p.e attires but pretended we din bring so we slacked in the gym lorh. super nice to slack for p.e ok. hahah. aniwae. im supposed to be asleep now to get ENERGY for test tomorrow!!

NITEYS !!! ((;

-=god loves his little children=-

`love him

``fear him

```hate sin

a dae on sundae b4 science cAs/!!

2005-08-14T22:54:00.000-07:00

I GIVE YOU MY HEART

This is my desire to honour you.

Lord with all my heart.

I worship you.

All i have within me,

I give you praise.

All that i adore you

Lord i give you my heart,

I give you my soul.

I live for you alone.

Every breathe that i take,

every moment i'm awake,

Lord have your way in me.

Well. todae's a sundae!! n todae was a realii great dae!! a fun dae!! and another dae of experiencing god's presence!! WOOHOOO~ i m like super hyper lorhhs! hhaha. hmmms.. basically todae rite. i woke up earlier to study for heat transfer for science. den i went to church. cos rite.. the night b4 i slept like at around 3 plus to study lrohs. haha. hmmm.. dens went to church. it was reali raining like super heavy lar.. den i took taxi to tana merah MRT.. took train there and met e peeps dere. guess wad.. tania came!! WOHOO!! praise the lord. now i reali pray that she'll get saved once more>. and dat she'll be back for shure! yae... hahaha. let's jst all pray dat god will touch her again lord.

Pastor How's serment was abt to fear of god. dat we all mst fear HIM. the almighty. and dat loving HIM is not enuff. fearing him is another step dat ALL of us mst make!!! fear him.. and love him as well. it was a reali powerful sermen and i reali loved it so much. ((: i felt god's presence again and again. and started to cry....

oyes!! i also bought the CD of the tracks of UNITED PRAISE ((: it totalli rocks my world man!!

after church riite. we actualli stayed back at church a lil while. the rest went hme when me n chiwen n meehan stayed a lil while LONGER. haha. den we slacked and laughed there. interracted. den made our wae hme.. here cums the interesting part! hahaha. the train came --> it was PACKED!!! reali packed ok. dens me n chiwen squeezed lar. den SUDDENLI RITE... when i was abt to go in .. chiwen was bhind me lar.. den the DOOR OF THE TRAIN CLOSE LOR!! den i rushed in. chiwen was outside of the rain. like WHOAHHS> so lucky!!!! hahah. if i were to take a lil step out of e train rite.. i wud haf been squashed like a PANCAKE OK!!! haha. den chiwen met up wif me and we bof went hme after dat. (: SO FUNNYY!!!

hmms. went hme. studied science again. listenined to all the songs which were reali touching larhhs. yups! den had a talked wif chiwen abt some stuffs den now bloggin again! hehee. hmmms. i needa go sleep akready. cos 2mr got test. okiee den. i gtg slp! GOD BLESS EVERYONE!! NITEYS!!~

-=god loves his little children=-

#love him

#fear him

#hate sin

hypocrites are everywhere/...

2005-08-12T22:36:00.000-07:00

Jesus died your soul to save; For your life He freely gaveAll He had in heaven above, Just to show His wondrous love.Wondrous love so rich, so free-- Can it truly be for me?Yes, dear friend, 'tis true, 'tis true, All Christ did, He did for you.

=====jesus =sacrificed for us=====

You ask me why I love the Lord.Well, friend, just let me sayLife was not worth living'Till the Saviour came my way.You say I lose so much in life.Yes, friend, PRAISE GOD, I do.I lose the sin and sorrowWhich was all I ever knew.

I lose the days spent seeking joy,The long nights full of tears;I lose the heavy burdens,Which I carried through the years.

But friend, I would not have them backFor all that you could pay.My life was not worth living'Till the Saviour came my way.

----jesus loves us for who we are.. his little children---

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his love will never be forgotten (: hmms. now i can feel HIM leading n guiding me in whatever i do.. self-control, forgive-forget, frenship --> EVERYTHING!! he has answered my prayer. HE is the almighty, he is sucha a GREAT heavenly FATHER!!! ((: hmmms. recently.. kinda everytying's goin quite smoothly. me n her not exactly talking.. n i noe its god's will and im not gonna change anithing.

i had follow up wif ivan n chiwen sat in on thurs 11-08-2004. yepps. it was great doin follow up wif dem! it was like.. real gd. however.. i didnt write down the 10 things truthfully.. hmms. yea. not gonna sae now. haiis. like wad ivan saed : god created those people and oso the relationships btw all men on earth!! only HE can change it.. only HE our father can make anithing happen. ONLY HE--> can change the impossible to the possible. yea. dats so rite. haha. now in TK, we're gettin more n more united sumhow. yAE!! it's totali rockin!!! WOOHOOOOOOOOO~ hahaha. i lurve it when we get united and we'll be BIGGER ANS STRONGER TOO!! yae.. haha.

hmmmms. CAs are like 2 daes away. sumhow prepared. sumhow not. altho i've finished all- still feel i m not confident!! HAIIYO!! ARRRRGHHH!!!.

DONE

Literature

History
Chinese

Geography

Science

Maths

basically all done lar. however.. these are wad i wanna TOUCH UP!!! --> ALL OF EM!! i reali feel dat if i dun BUCK UP HARDER!! i canort maintain!! im serius ok.. its like.. the tension is on.. the position too. AARRRRRRRGGGGHHH!.. but i noe god'll help me for shure. (: n EVERYTHING"S POSSIBLE WITH HIS LOVE N HELP!! YOOHOOOO~

oyes! i've gotten a new phone too!! so unexpected lor. its like.. when into the phone shop.. saw this phone.. not a reali new model lar. but it was frm my great mum .. the lovin and caring mum dat i haf. (: she's jst so great. she's an on fire christian now. she's hafin follow-ups. its reali cooOL!! haha.

aniwae. i gtg .. oyes!! jst fer all ur info..im gonna change blog skin soon!!! bleahs.

-=god loves his little children=-

haf faith in god =))

2005-08-09T12:31:00.000-07:00

faith in god is the most important thing in life everyone mst haf in their christian lives. those hu dun believe in god will not haf eternal life. n i know exactly hu are those people hu wun haf eternal lives. but i shant sae.

i haf no confidence at all for my CAs tis time. i m reali not prepare ok. people like soph bx n ronald shurely do better dan me der.. but i will buck up reali hard for my SA2!!! n score back my marks man. (: i will show dem dat church is not LEADING ME ASTRAY n will prove THOSE PEOPLE wrong!!! those people whom they see as frens are not frens.. but choose those who will peii ni for eternal life wif lord.

but still.. havin faith in god is the most important thing now. i feel lar. nowadays i hang out wif church frens.. n i dun tink dere's anithing wrong wif it. if those people hu haf ani opinions.. feel free to voice it out cos i will not take dem into consideration. HA HA HA!

i feel dat its god's an pai.. n dat every christian goes thru the sme thing. loll. yea. now im like super screwed for CAs lar.

.maths = alot more exercises frm assessments
.chinese = done
.science = here n there
.lit = havern started
.geog = oni done 1 chapter out of 2
.history = oni done 1 chpter out of 2

im like reali slackin now. so .. im gonna reali buck up these few daes. n prove to SOME people out dere hu thinks i canort make it.. dat I CAN DO EVERYTHING WIF GOD'S HELP!! WOOHOOOOOOOOO!!!

todae rite. mitch, meehan and jenn came to mii hse to "study" together lar. it was reali farn ok. ended up i studied most and the other 3 slacked. hahaha. den it was reali farnie lar.. hahahha. den we watched movie : BEWITCHED. super nice movie ok. hahaha.

during the past few daes of F.O.P .. it was reali refreshing n had a lot of fun times singin wif DELIRIOUS n HILLSONG!!! hahah. WHOOHOOOOOOOO!!. bot quite alot of stuffs oso lor. hahaha. notebooks n shirt. the songs were reali cool n GREAT!!!!but b4 we cud get into the stadium.. we had to que.. n we were lucky to haf the front few seats.. (: PHEW! it was reali hot but lucky it didnt rain lar.. if not jia lat. hahaha.

my follow up sessions are finished!!! however.. im still counted as in intergration. hahaha. but nvm!! sumore on mondae after sch.. we went to gabriel's hse to EAT N WATCH MOVIES!! reali cool.. had TK bonding man. haha. its reali farn n nice nice nice!!! we ate pasta-chicken-ice cream n chips. reali growin fat now. hahaha. den watched : the pacifier n a hokkien movie lar.. n PASSION OF CHRIST which we reali cried like siao ok. u all shud watch too u noe.. [for those hu havern watch la]. all was cryin but someone. but i shant sae it out. he did not understnad... but i guess he sort of teared at the end of it all. hahaha. yea.. we worshipped god after the movie... n gab;s mum was like so farnie lor.. n super nice too. (:

aniwae. i need to go slp to get energy for 2mr ler. hahaha. STUDY!! WOOHOOOOOOOO!!! NOTHING WILL DEFEAT MY FAITH!!

a dae of F.O.P!!!

2005-08-06T01:02:00.000-07:00

god is in our hearts forever

wif us no matter where u are

god will never forsake us

god will never leave us

god will always protect us

believe in him n she shall love u

open up ur hearts to him

accept him as little children

cry out to him

HE LOVES ALL

todae was a trully great dae. now's like cumin to 1 AM. n im bloggin.. cool riite. hahha. well.. tis mrnin studied history n did maths hwm b4 goin to PS bustop to meet for F.O.P. tell u sumthing.. IT WAS FUN!!!! jst PURE LOVE FRM GOD!! its reali great being there...we waited for quite a LONG tiime man. but however.. i din regret waiting so long... cos the songs were great!!! we sang ALOT of songs man. DELIRIOUS N HILLSONGS are great ok!!! dey're like so fantastic n powerful ok!!! i oso bot a CD : cross. its reali nice.. cos haf the song --> CRY! it goes like tis :

Lost in u alone

is where i wanna be

to hear ur voice

Softly in my ear

u whisper words to me

dat i m urs

Cant live a dae wifout ur presence

closer to u i wanna be

My soul cries out for more of u ; my lord

my portion n hope

i close my eyes n feel u near

there's nobody else dat can take ur place

IN MY HEART

now dats my favourite. once u hear it. u'll cry. im serious.. i cried for like duno how long when i first heard it. and dat indonesian song. its reali great. i reali duno wad to sae for it.

i was actualli very worried whether i cud make it for my target for CAs as it is reali super pressurising. for maintainin results is like.. super hard lor. but i noe dat wif god;s help love n care.. he'll help me to do so. :)) lord reali spoke to me todae.. i felt reali very relieved n comforting to noe dat he was listenin to me n dat he responded. i felt honoured. =x i cant wait for 2mr's CG. haha. heard jenn's gona lead us for games. shure very fun wan lorhs. hha. but after CG need to go hme study liaoo. i reali wanna excel in my studies n i pray for everyone out dere to do well too!!! (: lets excel n work hard together!!! lets all not disappoint anione!! n prove to others dat everyone can make it!!! :)

i believe dat if we haf FAITH.. we'll meet our goals/targets better.. as faith can bring us aniwhere wif god's help. =p todae when pastor frm london preached n told us one of his stories.. it was reali very touching.. one of his frens died while saving sumone frm gettin hurt in a serious fight but he saed dat he knew his fren was wif god already.. n wasnt sad over it. pastor oso saved abt 3 homosexual guys frm the streets jst like dat. WHOAHHS ..aint dat powerful!! its great!!!! its sucha wonderful thing!! i jst love god's presence n how he does all the miracles. but i jst wanna let HIM noe.. dat we'll not let him shed his blood for us for no use.. we'll prove to everyone dat we'll save all those hu are not yet saved n let dem accept U LORD into their hearts. soften deir hearts n come into their lives rite now. some people may think im too into church.. however.. i believe dat if u're dere wif me todae at kallang.. u'll b saeing the EXACT sme thing as me now. :X haha. its reali fun todae.

now i feel clean.. tired.. purified n received the love frm lord our saviour once again. :)) its reali a great feeling to hear our lord tokin to us.

there might be people hu tink dat im reali goin mad now.. maybe i m.. but i jst still dun understand y some people mst gossip. does it bring anithing gd out of it? NO. it doesnt. lord.. help these sian n BO LIAO people!! hahaha. (:

i've learnt to be cheerful.. which will make ur dae a MORE BETTER dae!! aniwae. i gtg slp!! super duper tireed ler. NITEYS!!!

after follow up wif ivan on frenship n listenin to god. :))

2005-08-04T23:09:00.000-07:00

i had reali a time in church todae. firstly.. after the australian maths test thingy rite.. we went church lar. fang lynn n i went for follow up . ya. it was great lar. cos basically i get to hear wad ivan saed abt frenship. it was dat everyone went thru tis problem. its god's plan. nothing can change it. n dat i shud choose wad i reali wan n wad is reali meant for me. :) i felt dat the tok was very meaningful n told me all dat i wanted to noe.. i oso heard abt wad pastors saed to ivan. abt influence...being calm..COOL...hahaha. n it was reali great n all la. i reali loved follow ups. :)) no matter wad happens.. I M HU I M.. n i'll choose wads right n wads wrong. n dat i'll never compromise to ani situations. :))

im here not to tell anione dat im a mad person abt god n church n all.. but dat i M HU I M again. i'll learn from my past mistakes n not to commit dem once more. :P

i'll blog another dae. i m reali tired now. :)

feeling so odd and left out.

2005-08-03T22:43:00.000-07:00

hmms. recently quite alot happened. firstly frenship again. i emailed grace again sayin on wad i felt during the journey hme together. i realised that altho some things haf been cleared up.. our frenship is not as strong as b4. n im not dat surprised by dat. however.. today, i shall not talk abt all these unhappy stuffs as it had already hurt me enuff le. now i shall be my cheerful n happy self and shall not get angry or sad ANIMORE!! PRAISE THE LORD!! now a days.. alot of people haf been concerned and caring towards me esp U GUYS !!! hahaha. its reali nice nice nice and felt alot of warmth. thanks soo much. cos now i oso understand tat wad gab sae is so true. frens cum n go.. but god is sme today, yesterdae n forever. which is SO TRUE> n i feel dat those hu cannot accept for hu i m .. den too bad den! hahha. cos i m ME!! n the onli ME - sabrina!!! i shall be mixable!! n not gossip or sae bad stuffs animore n forever!!! cos itsUNGODLY yea. hahha. its nothing dat i can sae or do to rewind time back to the past .. like wad gab saed i haf to move on and carry on wif my life!!!! :) i felt myself renewed and purified under HIS love. and HE told me the sme thing as wad gab told me too. :)

i've also read ivan's blog. n wad he saed is so right.. one shall not compromise or give in to anithing. and be a godly self. :) i learnt alot frm his blog and chiwen's one too. its reali nice to haf such great leaders like ivan, mingrong, chiwen, gab to lead us and guide us and to tell us our mistakes so dat we can change for the better. i oso learnt dat if sumone tells u sumthing wrong.. dun get offeneded.. but take it and accept it. n mostimportantly.. BE HAPPY!! being happy reali can change the atmosphere and ur life ok. hahaha. im speakin frm experience. hahaha.

im startin to get nervous for CAs. lord i pray for all of us to concentrate and get GD BETTER grades!!! hahaha. im oso scared for my ballet exam cumin up in 16th sept. SCARY LEA. but i believe.. dat wif god's help.. i'll do well. :))

today mani messaged me abt how i was feeling alrite or not. i reali wanna thank these people for concerning : chiwen, ivan, gabriel, deny, alex, FL n so on. :) its reali nice of u guys. thanks so much.. i reali duno wad else to sae. n F.O.P is cumin!!! WOOOHOOOOO!! i realii cant wait man. i reali wanna go there!!!!!!!!! hahahaha. :) i tink i'll start cryin like a baby again. lol. -.-"

well. lets jst hope dat 2mr will be another great dae. niteyys!!

abt grace thingy and ballet marks!!

2005-08-02T22:51:00.000-07:00

I always wanted more from youthan you were willing to give;So now we've gone our separate wayseach with different lives to live.The bond will always be therethe friendship always intact;

But the time for us has come and goneand the pages of time, you can't turn back.I will always be a friend to youand wonder how you are;

The smiles and laughter I will rememberand our fights have become painless scars.Sometimes on those busy dayswhen you've a thousand things to do;

Please let me glide slowly through your mindand spend some time with you.In that quiet momentwhen you're surprised to find me there;

Just remember even with the distance between usI am still someone who cares.

This is a poem tat i found abt frenshiip. frenship is something dat everyone has to have in life. without frens.. life is also meaningless too!! (: frens play a great big part in everyone's life. especialli in mine. recently.. i've lost so many frens around me due to church stuffs. however.. things started to got worse frm there. The reasons started to change.. it soon bcame MY fault in everyting. and the frenship grew further frm there onwards. i started to feel as if i was the loner.. but luckily i found sara n 2 more people. i felt as if my circle of frens were narrowin and gettin really smaller. it hurts =x. but i noe dat god is still and always there for me. however... today, sumthing wrong happened. joan told me dat grace told her i LOST 2 of her pens n dat i din return her back. i took the trouble to go n buy the 2 pens back n she saed she found one of em. okae. i dun wana elaborate on it animore. its no use tokin abt it all the time.. cos once i think abt it. i'll get even more hurt. i sent an email to her todae. its a super long wan. talked abt EVERYTHING i wanna sae to her. and she replied.. n i cried. i shall not sae it. :( i felt as if my heart was piecing back into pieces and at the sme time.. breakin up. its odd isnt it. i reali dunno wad to do. maybe i shud jst take a small step back. cool down. relax.. and treat everything NORMALLY and BE CHEERFUL! YEAH!! dats wad i shud do!! cos i dun like my hurt and sad self.. i like my HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY self!!! :))

Recently.. i haf been goin for ballet lessons ALOT ALOT to train!!! its reali enjoyin to dance ballet. i duno y too. dat sense of pleasure.. real niice :) n my exam is on 16th of sept! ARGH!! scared scared scared!! but i believe god'll gimme strength to overcome the nervousness. oya!! n i've jst gotten back my results for Grade 6! got high distinction!! WOOHOOOOOO!! praise the lord!!! hahaha. 89/100. yae yae yae.. hahaha. hmm...lets jst pray i'll do jst as well for my intermmediate examination la. hha. (:

this comin fridae is FOP!!!!! cant wait man. i reali wanna go there n listen to all the wonderful songs plaed and lord's presence once more. :) emerge conference was reali great!! i tink tis wan shud be even better ya!!! hahaha. (: recently.. i've also been studyin real hard. STRIVE FOR THE BEST!! woohooo!!

another thing dat has been bothering me for mani times is abt my grandmother. she went out of her hse to get sumthing.. fell. n cracked her skull a lil. its really scary u noe. she said it was very pain pain pain. she's already cumin 80. she's still a healthy-caring-beautiful-nice-GREAT-fabulous grandmother hu is also a christian!!altho her age doesnt show it.. she's reali on fire too!! she loves us soo much. i almost cried when i heard dat the nxt time she was goin to fall.. she might be paralysed. i pray for dat not to happen. :)) i heard frm her dat something INVISIBLE force pushed her. LORD. SAVE HER LORD!!

jst finished ballet now. hope everything'll be alrite!! PRAISE THE LORD!! im kinda tired. so.. guess i'll end it here. niteyy!!

a sundae. ACADEMIC EXCELLENCE DAE~

2005-07-31T22:57:00.000-07:00

Today is ACADEMIC EXCELLENCE DAY!!!! hahha. it was reali great to b back in church again!! i love e presence of god. :)) hmm.. wad pastor how preached today was really great. abt studies... the knowledge-understandin n wisdom a person mst haf is SUPER important. and dat we can ALL balance up christianity+studies+character!! WOOHOO!! isn't it great!?!. sang loads of wonderful songs out there. really cried out to the lord. there were reali alot of problems now here and there. n here it goes :

well. firstly.. in sch. everything's goin on reali fine now. im reali happy with the friendship btw me and the others. jst hope that everything'll remain the wae it is. :))

next rite.. is in L-D class. basically i felt like "out" la. ok. in the past, me n sylvia were close however now not lar. she's close to the guys like wei keat n don and her fren oso ba. i dun care lor. dens it was like.. she's always PMSin. dats wad i din reali like.. but i din tell her in order not to hurt her feelings. i shall not brab animore. i seriousli felt like cryin. its the pair thing again. tiara wants jst to fit in wif ade n huishi dey all.. she's got wei cheng oso. wei keat wif sylvia. don wif gf shawn wif gf too. zach wif King man. cheryl wif everyone. den oso got alot alot. i cant possibly tok to philip all the time mar. its like he has arthur n gf n his NEW students. which is gd lar. but its like i cudnt reali communicate very very well wif dem as much as i do wif the other frens dat i haf. mayb its age diff. wei keat n sylvia had some probs la. den dey both started PMSin. bof started to ignore me. bof started to give me cold shoulders. i was like.. wad!?! can some1 jst tell me WAD is goin on!?! haha. den me n perle were like all alone. the sad thing is dat we're not like in the "grp". i duno y lor. haha. aniwae.. jst enjoy life wif god.. cos me n perle noe dat he'll always be wif us forever wherever we are. :)

yea. n now im online and doin tis. haha. tokin to dat marcus low zhao ming. irritating.. but farnie. hahaha. so farnie. wan me buy present $80 bucks!?! hais. mad rite. i noe. aniwae. i gtg slp. sick -->down wif flu. :) NITEYS!!

29 july 2005 Fridae :(

2005-07-29T12:05:00.000-07:00

2dae. wasnt a very good dae as i wud haf expected it to be. well.. basically firstly in the morning, i went to school and practice for dance in the toilet. honestly, i felt reali wierd doin those STUFFD out there. but i knew dat if i were to sae :" i reali cant do tis. i wanna back out" my frens wud be reali angry and all. i joined this out of PURE fun and laughter and for joy.. bleah. i tot we wud b dancin to dose reali nice technologic or happy happy kinda music.. not DIRTY ones. however.. to those 3 of em. they seemed to do those thangs reali well and dun seem to care abt anithing else. mii n jenn were like.. oh man. y r we doin tis infront of so mani ppl.. esp in front of our leaders. chiwen and gab. and alex-fang lynn and the whole sch!! the first thing i sense was : DISAPPOINTMENT>NOT THE RIGHT THING TO DO. it was realii hurting. but.. i brought tis upon myself. i cud haf said NO in the first place to stop all these "STEPS" frm comin out. it was reali a disaster to me. many saed we danced reali well and blablabla. but i felt tat.. NO. we din. me din. the rest i duno la.

there was like tis reali dirty-unclean-disgusting-guilty thing in me dat no matter wad, i cudnt clear it off. n i din wanna live with DAT kinda feelings in me for my life !! so i went church .. upper room, wif jenn, mitch n mee han. and we reali prayed n prayed. for god's forgiveness. i smsed gabriel and apologised to him and to god. DIRTY DANCING = NO GOOD. yea. dats the summary of all.

den at church.. had lots of fun again. met ivan, jason, esther ETC. haha. got to know a few more people like roy, kevin or kelvin arh.. den duno hu liao. kinda forget their names sumhow. hahaha. i cried for like non stop in upper room.. and the song reali suits wad i wanted to pray and say. it was jenn hu played it and it was reali meaninful. ivan told us to move on and to forget wad happen n not to compromise to these kind of situations dat much animore. :) it was reali nice to hear advice frm sumone.

but i cud reali sense a disappointment in many people. after church.. had to go for more dancing. tis time is MODERN line dancing class.. not dirty wan. hahaha. hmms.. spent time there frm 7-9 lidat..den went home study a lil and here m i !! dadadadada!! during these weeks.. or shud i sae daes.. i reali learnt ALOT ALOT!! haha. alot until i duno where to start or sae.

CAs are coming!! in jst 2 weeks time!! its like.. SO FAST!! i reali hope i will do well. =x i m like super tired now la. so.. i'll guess i sleep first. NITEYS!!!

come bac home:)

2005-07-28T23:09:00.000-07:00

now jst came back from church. jst prayed. i learnt alot of things from follow up todae as i saed : learnt how to reali pray for things. it was reali nice to be in god's house and that his presence was everywhere wherever i go. well.. recently there's this problem that came out. honestly.. i dun like to score low marks .. well.. HU DOES!?! haha. i scored oni a 18/25 and i cud haf gotten 20/25. CARELESS!! however.. there were many students in my class hu gotten 20 PLus PLUS!! i was very disappointe dat myself. but i knew that with god's help.. i will DO EVEN BETTER!! and will continue to excel in studies.

i was kind of bothered by the fact that grace and JY got higher dan me. it was jealousy mixed with regret sort of thing. i reali duno how to put it in words.. whenever i c sam-grace.. i will think of the past and a spear will like pierce thru my heart once more. i reali duno y.. i always ask god to put this aside and now.. i m tryin real real real hard to do so. in sch.. im so fortunate to haf frens like jenn-alex-chiwen-meehan-gab-chiwen so on. without them.. i reali duno where i wud be .. and im oso super lucky to haf sara lee as a great fren. she reali understands my plight and reali is a great great fren.

I dont bear any grudges against any one any more as it reali doesnt help in doin so. hafin to haf an open heart and always be ready to forgive and forget is one thing dat even i shud learn to do. and it applies to everyone of u out there too!!. im reali inspired by what our leaders at church do.. its like.. whatever they do seems to be right and they are reali the role models dat we all shud be followin. In school, sometimes i would be lonely and left out. however.. now im not animore. be cheerful and happy all the time REALLY HELPS. from there.. i felt as if like the atmosphere had changed and that nothing seems to sadden me animore. it was all abt LAUGHTER!!.

in church todae.. i realli had a great time lar. went to check mails.. went to dance.. went to eat.. went to hang out.. went to SORT OF revise work..an all. it was reali ncie ncie ncie!!!

however.. now in school-class .. mani ppl now know dat im bery INTO church stuffs and dey sae :" walau. church church church. dats all u're occupied wif ar".. i was like.. :"wadever" but i din sae dat out - SELF CONTROL. hahha. hmm.. somehow i was kinda a lil hurt by that. i reali hope that dey would one dae understand. and dat im not led astray by church. y do ppl sae that!! i jst dun understand. m i so INTO church dat i neglect everything else in life? no. i dunt. i jst want to let people know NOW that im not neglecting Anything and that im still ME no matter what. :)

im not angry nor petty nor moody nor tempremental animore also. which to me.. is kinda like a great achievement la. hmm.. i pray dat 2mr's oral will be a success and will go on smoothly.. and that tmr's talent search .. we will all dance properly despite those "moves".. :)) oya!! n mu mum's planted in our church!! YAE YAE YAE!! she went there for a week oni.. n she's already hafin follow up sessions wif aunty alicia = eugene seah's mummii!!! HOW COOL IS DAT!! whoahhs.. it is reali COOL!! I LOVE GOD!! WOOHOOOOO!! she's also been coming to church regularly and has been goin for upper room prayer. :) which oso totally rocks!! hahaha. praise the lord for that!!! my brother has also been comin to church wif my mummy. :D

now's 11.08pm. meanin i shud be asleep . so,... chiao and GTG!! SLEEP!! NITEYS!!!

hmmm.. a dae at church. follow-up :))

2005-07-28T19:35:00.000-07:00

todae. first thing.. went sch. -.- ok. den after school had to pratice dance for TS and den rushed to church. we tot we were late , was wif jenn chiwen and mee han. den realised that ivan was kinda late for like a few mins. hehe. dens went for follow-up. today's follow up was basically abt how to pray to god lar. it was abt P A R T. yupps. and learnt ALOT ALOT ALOT of things. :)) it was reali great to be in church.. i dunoo y.. i jst feel like stayin here OVER NITE!! cos i missed the overnite prayer meeting. well.. heard still got chance.. I WAN TO GO!! hehehe. well.. during follow up. talked abt that and oso abt QT- how to do it. i started it since i heard abt it and it reali works. i heard abt a guy prayin for the rain to stop for that moment to take something and asked god to let it continue to rain all he wanted after dat. its jst.. i duno how to put it into words.. god is jst so wonderful-Great-fantastic-majestic and is MIRACULOUS!! I LOVE GOD!! GOD TOTALLY ROCKS!! WOOOOHOOOO`!!!

hmms. i tink when i go hme den i continue. :)) cya!! :))

after god's tok to me. :))

2005-07-27T22:05:00.000-07:00

god'll always be bside u. ALWAYS :))

friendship problems always comes when i m with ani frens. all these started from last year. when i was reali tempremental and petty and always PMSin. but i had learnt ALOT of lessons frm them and reali changed my character alot tis year. im not like the past ME. i m the NEW ME!!

everytime i walk into sumwhere. i'll always feel that im the extra wan. i duno y. but its jst dat wae. 19 gurls in class = 1 person out. n dats always ME. hmm.. yea. but its ok. i haf mani other frens out there. :)) U PPL!! hahaha. altho now im seriousli not close to grace, sam, jos, nette.. i dun care nor do i mind animore. i've learnt to put them aside and not let it upset me as god is always here for me. but there's still this tinny lil bit inside me that is hurt whenever i think of the past frenship we had.. so close.. but now.. its all gone. and on a morning recess, me n sam shouted and screamed at each other. den i cried la. she saed i've changed.. and that im led astray by church.. said tat i shud stop goin to church and to stop goin wif chiwen and all. my first thinking : Y!?! TELL ME!?!?!. den second thinking : oooOorh. u jst wan me to be ur dog to follow u around wherever u go la. so dat i'll jst be that person hu'll jst listen to UR probs and NOT mine. and dat im jst a substitute for grace as she's now wif JY too. and u jst deliberately wan me to be left out. third thought: if u dun mean so.. den tell me the reason. BUT THE THING IS THAT SHE DOESNT NOE WAD TO TELL ME! AND SHE SAED DAT I SHUD STAY AWAY FROM CHURCH PPL!!! dumb rite. -.- but aniwae.. after recess.. talked things out wif her slowly.. den okok la. but im NOT AT ALL close to ANIONE. includin : GRACE-SAM-JOS-NETTE-JY... yea. and now i guess i haf oni sara ba. but limpon's wif her. so.. im all alone again..... but its ok. i dun mind animore now. cos .. life's not jst abt that.. haha

Mayb its more realistic if i jst put them aside! and concentrate on servin, worshippin, prayin to god and STUDY!! STUDY!! STUDY!! hahaha. and i jst wanna sae a reali BIG BIG BIG BIG THANK U TO ALL CHURCH PPL!! u guys are reali great. :)

and tis fridae is talent search auditions. IM AFRAID. look at the NUMBER of ppl watching!! and altogether : sec1,2,3. sec 4s were not there as they had xtra lessons. however.. dat was on tues. but this fri.. includes sec1 , 2 , 3 and 4 watching!! OMG. im reali scared. help!!!

i gtg slp!! niteys!!

[+] unexpected =#

2005-07-21T22:36:00.000-07:00

hmmms. kinda alot of things happened lar. lemme start with friendship X) at first, my friendship wif jos, sam n grace kinda messed up. its all becos of one word n a reason : L-E-F-T-O-U-T. yeps. dats simple rite. haha. den i was kinda like felt alone and left out as there was reali no one to go wif larhs. den i felt like lonely.. luckily during dat time i have chiwen n e rest to accompanii me lorhs. yea.. dens it was like.. me n grace wasnt dat close animore. sad to sae.. even now oso not ler. i dun reali tell her my probs. i dun reali tok to her in sch.. she hangs out more wif JY. Online dat time.. she confronted me.. she saed all the stuffs la.. n in the end i cried while typing. stoopiid lar. haha. den sam wrote me a testii. super touching. haha. yea.. so.. we're kinda okae now la. but still- our frenship is not as strong as b4. n jos .. i duno her la. there's like reali nothing to tok abt to her animore.. its like.. she's a total stranger. i dun tok to her AT ALL. i reali wan everyting to go bac to normal like in the past. X)

sometimes in church i oso feel leftout. but now i learnt dat i shudnt think dat wae.. haha. yepps. n me n him is OVER i guess. its like.. we dun even tok to each other AT ALL ok. even when on smses.. we seem to haf reali NOTHING to tok abt. n he then goes around flirting wif other gurls la. now im not paranoid of over sensitive. I M NOT> okae. i reali duno. whenever i tink of him.. i 'll feel like real sad n hurt. dat all the promises he made are empty. :( well.. i tink its god's will dat we are not continuing. n as i saed.. we dun fit. yeea.. dats rite. maybe the best wae is the forget ALL abt the past and move on wif my life and STUDY!! hahaha.

2mr afternoon gonna go msia ler. cant wait. but its like.. i oso wanna go church on so hpe can go bahhs. hehe (: aniwae.. i gtg slp lers. niteyys!!

sucky la.. jos suclks

2005-07-18T18:17:00.000-07:00

whatever seems to be happening now sucks totally. now tis is the truth. i dislike her. i duno y.. but i jst dislike her. the wae she walks-talks-run-stand-sit-her face. ALL!! i dun like her. n i duno y. i wan her to b saved.. but how to when we're not even tokin to one another!?!?!. dats the thing.. in sch .. all not tokin. oni me n sam. WTH lor. its like.. pls la. LOOK AT URSELF before saein abt me!! i dun wanna gossip. i dun wanna sin again. forget it. seems like our friendship ends here..
Now rite.. me n him not even tokin .. he's gotten closer to someone.. if i sae it out, he'll tink im clingy and jealous and dun trust him animore. we're not even dat close nemore. i tink it burnt out too fast la. ALL guys are lidat. GUYS JST SUCK LA.

y mst everything turn out to be lidat. i wan to go to god rite now. but .. i oso noe dat i canort run away frm all these but tp face it bravely. :(

oh.. n in follow-up.. so farniie lorhs. aniwae.. jst hope dat 1/2 a yr PASSES SLOWLY.. i dun wanna leave dat fast. aniwae.. nvm. i needa go ballet liao. chiao`

-sabb`

SAM.. wad e hell

2005-07-16T19:02:00.000-07:00

u noe wad. if u dun wanna cum. jst sae it to my face!!! u need not sae dat i m irritating or wadsoever.. u noe wad.. all u people are b-i-t-ches la. one duno how to keep secrets den sae out. the other change so much and is trying to be a BIMBO. now u wad.. becos of them den lidat meh. u tink i want all of these!?! NO!! im not being over sensitive. im jst ME. n if u canort accept me .. den too bad. i haf nothing to sae lor. i mean is dat.. U saed u wanna cum to church. Den its like.. i called u to jst re-confirm n tell u the timing again.. den wad .. u shouted :"i dun wanna go la!! y all HoGc people so irritating de!" u tink i like dat? oh - puleeese. NO. i dun like it. HURT was one thing now dat i haf. i jst feel like scolding u : B****. FU**** but i cant. cos u are still a fren of mine and u're trustable. i'll jst mention u all out la. samantha is the one hu doesnt wanna cum. n im not angry cos u DUN wanna cum but cos u SHOUTED dat i m IRRITATING. the other wan with the BIG mouth and the stupid face is grace. I told u almost everthing.. u still had the cheek to tell it out to ppl like sara. pls la..i havern actualli told ANIONE abt u n eugene. n jocelyn.. im not gonna tok abt her la.

im not angry!! im jst pissed off and hurt. y mst u do all these to me AGAIN!!!! if its bcos of my attitude or shit character.. JST SAE IT OUT!!!!!!! i dun wan all these to happen again!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
im not gonna cry or be sad over this. cos i noe... u ppl r not FIT for my tears.

i m glad i've found ppl like soph, LP, Sara. u guys are NOT like those idiotic freakos.

... bleahs. church rocks!! GOD ROCKS!!

2005-07-09T23:19:00.000-07:00

1stly.. before i do anithing. me wanna apologise for not writing here for sucha long long time man.. haha. ermms. on fridae.. i actually went for leadership seminar la.. it was real great and i loved it alot. It was so touching and we really had sucha great time and connected really well with god. Pastor lia prayed for me too :) which was great!! i fell under the power of god and realised that.. God really answers prayers!! n it was jst a matter of time. i oso realised that i was actually discouraged that some ppl didnt wanna cum to church. n i brot this fren of mine ytd. He had nvr been to ani church b4. n he was soo not interested after attendin church ytd. cos.. he felt wierd and had nvr seen such things b4. but lemme tell u.. all these happens in other churches too wad. but i'll nvr lose faith in anithing.. but will continue to reach out to people hu r not saved and do not noe jesus my lord.

Next, todae was 2 sessions of leadership seminar. it was another great dae. :) more deeper heart to heart moments wif ppl there and more touching moments. it was reali great. people mite think i m mad. mayb in possessed by some demon or something. but let me tell u AGAIN.. I M NOT!! this is ME!! im frm HoGC !! no one can stop me frm goin church unless its god. n i will wanna continue to serve, worship and fellowship him!!! Some ppl frm my own class.. ALWAYS gimme excuses that dey r not able to go.. it's like.. Y NOT!!??!!. y dunt u jst go there n give it a try!?! if u feel wierd.. tell ME!! if u wanna go back .. tell ME!! y keep quiet and tok bad abt us???

Like wad pastor How saed :" god is my god. and i'll nvr allow anibody .. to hurt him. i can feel his heart aching and how it hurts," it was reali meaningful.

2mr i'll haf to go church again at 11.45 :) n so i guess i'll c u again another dae. :)

2005-07-03T21:53:00.000-07:00

2dae.. another dae has passed. now at abt 9.41pm lidats. dens in the mrning woke up at abt 9.45 lidat.. den revised my history text book chapter 14 and done finish my interview project for history. yeps. dens changed and went to Church. HoGc. yeps. dens spent time worshipping.. bible study.. singin songs.. listening to pastor How. yeppps.. it was like so farn to b in church. its like goin there for god n NO ONE ELSE.

freaking frenship problems. i duno la. dun feel like typing anithing aniwae. loll. n 2mr is YOUTH DAY!! WOOHOOOOO` hahahaha. lucky got no sch man. lols.

dens sumore got lots of tiime. hehhee. grace asked mii out jst now. aiiya. duno if i shud go out anot. den like eugene kept on saein :" u ok anot." dots. hahahahhaa. so im here to tell u guys. IM NOT OK. n IM NOT OK.. dots. lols.

aniwae. i'de better stop crapping la. 2mr i type again. chiiao`

:))

2005-07-02T23:54:00.000-07:00

2dae was kinda like a tiring dae lohhs. in the mrnin woke up. dens read bible.. read HEAVEN IS SO REAL.. den came online.. :)) after dat riites.. i went to ballet n was late for 15 mins!!! hahaha. yuupps. after dat riites.. i rushed for philip's class. learn lots of new dances 2dae. happii happi!! haha. den was like sweating alot lahhs. haha. actuali 2dae oso nothin lahhs. haha. so. i 'll tink i end it here den. chiiao`

now its the actual thing

2005-07-01T06:36:00.000-07:00

now im feeling soo much better. honestly.. last nite i cudnt take it lorhs. ok. now im gonna xplaiin everything in detail. ytd was a thurs riites. actualii hor.. i was in sch doin the normall stupid stuffs la.. den after sch went to bookshop downstaiirs dere to meet chiwen n alex. cos i had to go for a seven session thingy for baby christians or sumthin. dens after dat rite.. we took a bus 16 to PS dere. dens on the bus i din put my wallet in mi bag as usual.. but put it bside mii wif mii file. dens rite.. all 3 of us were like laughin laughin laughin.. laugh until i forgot.. den got down the bus to ParkMall to buy food mahs.. den realise wallet GONE!! n inside it got $100 + ez-link card + all membership cards + resident card. everything in it lorhhs. wallau.. dens wanna cry lidat.. budden didnt la. haha. den went to church. prayed for mii wallet. i reali hope dat the wallet will return safely to me with the money.. i reali PRAY FOR IT ok. dens in church cud speak tongue liaoos. (: dens.. met somemore ppl dere la. haha. after dat rites.. we made our wae on train to eunos while alex took bus.. den went hme frmm bus 13 lorhs. reached hme.. did hwm n stuffs.. dens din dare to tell my mum until at abt after dinner hor.. den i pluck up courage lor. den told my mum : " mumi arh.. i lost mii wallet lea. den the 100 bucks gone," den she was like.. givin the "HUH!?!?!?!?!?" face.. den frowned reali bad.. den started SHOUTING!!! non-stop WHOLE nitee ok. dens she called my dad n even told him lorhs.. tis made things worst. my dad actualii wanted mi to stop ballet bcos the expenses for ballet was too ex- as his business jst started n its in msia.. so its kinda ex to spend here. den i was like.. crying for 2 n a half hr non stop oso... the thot of not continuing ballet made mii even cry more. it was like my passion and love for dancing sudd gone.. my wishes all gone. my hopes n dream all GONE GONE GONE!. mayb to some ppl tis is all crapp.. but to me.. ITS NOT! i reali love dancin so much.. n want to continue till i canort dance animore. of cos.. i m afraid dat 4 times a wk ballet training will affect my studies oso.. as it reali takes up alot of my time. so.. i wonder how i can cope. BUT i believe as long as i strive hard n do my best.. lord n the holy spirit will guide me n follow my heart in wad ever i do. my dad was like so disappointed. i cudnt hlp but cry even more. at 10.10pm, i prayed... n prayed. i haf faith dat my wallet will come bac to me. even if it takes how long.. oso i dun care. as long as it comes bac to me safely. Den on mondaee is youth dae.. can go out!! WOOHOOOO` can slack a lil. cos i oleadi revised some subjects. yiipeee~

im kinda like OK wif the wae he treats mi la. jst dat im jst not used to him not smsin me n not talkin to mii often animore. it seems ODD lorhs. haiiis. nehhmind. i tink i'll jst haf to make to do wif wad i haf now..

aniwaee.. i gtg . tired.

stupid money

2005-06-30T22:06:00.000-07:00

jst now. lost my wallet on the bus on the wae to church for the seven sessions after sch.. sat in the bus. wallet out. den off the bus goes. n left it there. inside got at least a 100 bucks to pay for my ballet lieutat and pointe shoes lorhs. 2mr is the last dae to buy sumore. den 2dae i no money. WALAU. wad e hell lorhs. came hme.. finalli broke the news out to mii mum. den she sae sae sae sae.. of cos i cry cry cry la. den cried for like 2 hrs or so.. stopped. den now im at lost of wad to do. sucky lors. i tink nxt time den i write again ar.. now dun feel like writing.

on a mondae. bac in sch again after june hols. =x

2005-06-27T19:57:00.000-07:00

2dae. is sch reopenin to a new semester. haiis. PRESSURE CUMIN AGAIN!!! ARGH!!!. hmms. scared . afraid. hahaha. 2dae woke up at usual timee. at 6.25am. superr tiired ok.ae. den mumii fetch mii go sch. enter class. lessons start AS USUAL. den recess.. den cum bac to boooks. BIIG BIIG SIGHS!! mr tan nort gonna teach nemore. haiyo. den cum duno wad teacher. stoopid name wan..!!! overall ar.. sch okok la. haha. but it was still great lorhs. haha. hmmms.. den after dat took bus hme rite.. den rushed to TM to pay ms pang $$$ den went bac. at abt 5.10 lidat. started hwm lorhs. haiis.. den came online continue hwm. hahah. den now here i m bloggin. later gonna read bible, b0oks, pray sleep. oya... n eat dinner. heheh.

on sat.. celebrated mii EARLY bdae. hahah. hmms. den invited like sooo mani ppl. cos i din noe ALL of em will cum lorhs. SURPRISING ok. so it was kinda difficult to handle lahhs. 25 ppl llorhs. haha. but i din regret askin dem to cum :). though it wasnt as farn as last yr.. i still found it ok la. it was kinda disapointin at SOME times. but its okaeeeee. haha. den while cutting cake.. sing song. LUCKILY joan din smash my face into the cake. hahaha. if nort i DIE arh. lol. choi choi choi!!! after dat cut cake. den realised CAKE WAS TOO SmALL!! too mani ppl lorhs. lol. but nvm la. i oso ate kinda like a small part tho. =] it was ok oberall. i honestly felt dat i left out some ppl .. but IM SORYY!! haha. i reali din mean to do it. :( hehe. aniwaeee. again.. its NOT my actual bdae yet. its on 29th of Junee. !!! in 2 daes tiime!! woohooooo`~ love the dae i was born!!! lols. okok. make shure ppl hu din turn up like HERM HERM mst gimme present hors!!

On sundae.. usual.. went to church. den on e train hor, sam's mum called. surprise surprise.. she din go hme at all. for abt 2 weeks. i tink. dats wad her mum sae la. den her mum oso ask ask ask den call mii mum .. n even cried infront of her.ON THE PHONE. lol. dens after dat went to dhoby gaut.. met up wif e ppl. den go loorhs. haha. den went church. cried =x. t e a r s// dens after dat rite. WHOAHHS. din noe man.. at 4 rite. hangin at e reception dere la. dens rite.. haiiyooooo. sudd jenn.mitch.chiwen.fanglynn n sumore gals shouted ..... u noe rite.. den everyone sang song song song.. paiisehs lorhs. den turned around face mich. den cake. den prezzi. den card. den eat cake... i was like.. blown away.. mayb its normal to sum ppl.. but nort to mii . hahaha. :) thanks u ppl. love u all. den mii n chiwen n somemore ppl went siao AGAIN all the wae till pS. lollls. michelle was like : u ok anort. lol. hahaha. so farn lorhhs. :)) den went eat. den go arcade. den after dat hor.. go home la! lol. den read bible again.. den prayeed. den slept for tis mrning. lols. :) so here it is!! so.. i go eat la. hungry ler. haha.

sabby wabby- out!

bac m i ~

2005-06-24T22:50:00.000-07:00

hmms. i m bac. frm msia. went to cousins hse. to mii hse. chatted wif cousins. ate dinners wif dem.. watched LOTS of vcds n dvds. ya.. saw mii dad. MISS HIM>>. dens jst came bac 2daee. haha. actuali oso nth lahs. so tired to type.. er. hope HE calls later. hehehe. ermms..haf yet to do ART hwm lorhs. :( haf to PREPARE & PLAN loads of stuffs for e dinner 2mr nite. kinda alot of ppl cumin. i tink. hahaha. HOPE it turns out well tho. yupps. OYA! in msia rites.. i almost 4gotten. went to tiara beach hotel in port dickson. WAHH! dere arhs.. like SHIT>KOPI DIAM>. lots of flies. haha. irritating flies!! FLIES SUCKS TO THE CORE!!!! haha. dens in the toilet wif perle rites.. dots. i accidentalli flushed down her clothes wif mii shit after i shited. LOL!! SUPER FARNIIEE!! den of cos it didnt get flushed down togeder wif mii shit la. i pulled it out; YUCK!! hahaha. den washed mii hands. LOL!. dens in the car got LOTS of ants.. had to squat thruout e journey.. den legs tired. HACK CARE. jst sit lorhs. hahahaha. reached sunway lagoon. WOOHOO! so much better lohrs. near shoppin centre sumore. den got time to swim play shop sleep read. hehe. den perle dey all went hme lers. DEN we go cousin's hse. hehehe. okiee. i m tired. wanna go slp. chiao~

--+sabB

-=lurve him. +`

2005-06-13T23:35:00.000-07:00

okaeee. ytd mrnin woke up.. had to eat breakfast n den went to TM at 9 plus ok. super tired sumoree. dens after dat went there go TIMES bookstore.. saw some INTERESTING bks.. den went to a Christian shop there.. beautiful ok. the things dere were niceee. :) den bot a NEW bible... n a CD.. n a bracelet? haha. cos over 60 bucks ok. hahahaha. kinda $$ ex. haha. but nvm. haha. :) den bot a necklace.. mii mum bot it ders. :)) duno how cum she so generous SUDD. haha. den went to mii aunty's shop : SENSE. got a free shirt. NICE OK!! its original cost was : $29.90 leahs. pheeew!! haha. den felt sooo gd. :) dens after dat had to go church liaoos. was wondering if he wud b dere anort. but.. i tink nort . den went wif perle to church. met e peeps. den went to church lorhhs. at dere saw him. LOL. super SURPRISED lorhs. yepyepps. den after dat riites.. we had great fun in church. den finish ler. had to rush hme. CURFEW!! ARGH! hahaha. called him on the phone on the wae hme.. chatted. den chatted online again. haha. read SAMUEL chapt in bible. now onlii till chpter 9 leahs. slow hors. haiis. wad to do!! haha. : den he called. tokked on e phone. :) den prayed at 10.10pm. den chatted again till abt 12 plus. he canort TAHAN.. haha. den we bof went to slp lorhhs. haha.

*--+sabb

+ I LOVE GOD =``

2005-06-11T21:19:00.000-07:00

The bible saes in 2 Timothy 1:7,

"For God has not given us a spirit of fear,

but of power and of love and of a sound mind."

Oftentimes, as someone once astutely observed,

the strongest prisons are not made out of brick and mortar

but in the minds of the men.

Humility is the gateway to success.

It means to be pliable and not insist on

our own ways or insist on our ideas all the time...

Humility is reacting only to the truth,

while pride is reacting and acting on a lie.

When you react only to the truth that the Holy Spirit brings into your life,

it will set u free and make u stronger.

" o draw me, o draw me away,

Messiah today

to your presence to stay.

Oh jesus come change me

and mould me

but I can be

Evermore true to thee."

`-- THIS TOTALLY SUCKS>> :(

2005-06-10T10:36:00.000-07:00

WADEVER I SAE OR DO DOESN'T SEEM TO SATISFY U. CALLING U IS SUCH AN IDIOTIC THING TO DO. I HATE U. I DON'T WANNA TOK TO U ANIMORE. U SUCK. EVERY BIT OF MY MIND IS NOT U. GET OUT OF MY LIFE. EVERYTHING U DO THINKS DAT IS GD FOR MII. BUT NO!!! U DUN EVEN TRUST MII AT ALL. NO RIGHT COMMUNICATION. NOTHING!!!!!!! GET OUT OF MY LIFE!!! IF THERE IS NO TRUST, DEN THERE IS NO MORE U! IT SUCKS LA. I DUN WANNA GO MSIA ANIMORE. I HATE U I HATE U I HATE U.

wad happened last nite = i went to an emerge conference at city harvest church. i was invited by nich , mich n chi wen. i initialli disagreed, but after much persuasion frm all of dem.. i decided to givee it a try. so once i came bac hme.. came online a lil while, den changed, n my mum drove mii to eunos MRT station. den went wif alex, jenn, nich to city harvest church lorh. den reached there .. din manage to get into the audi .. but sat in the "overflow room". i reali wanted to go into the audi lorh. so farn leahs. haiis. den nvrm. we waited for abt like.. duno how long la.. den finalli it started. we sang. prayed. do everything lorh. i din keep track of the time at all. it was supposed to end at 10.00 but.. as tis was the LAST NITE..it ended at 11 plus!!! my mum called mii 16 TIMES!!! n i replied one of the calls.. she started scolding mii once i picked up the phone. i felt like THROWING MY PHONE DOWN ON THE FLOOR! but canort la of cos. haha. den went down the lobby .. out to the road. waiited for somemore ppl. boarded the bus to bedok interchange la. there, mii mum was oleadi dere waiting. went into the car.. she din utter a single word. went bac hme.. called mii dad. started scolding : " where the hell did u go jst now. dyu noe wad time issit now anort? now is MIDNIGHT. ever since when did u go out soo late? dyu haf ani of our permission to let u out so late? so what if u go to church? so wad if it ended late? dun push the blame to the church. u cud haf easily excused urself at 10.00 n made ur wae hme urself. or u cud even call bac ur mum n ask her for permission if u cud stae up till so late. church is somewhere dat u go to jst to learn.. but dun......................" aafter dat.. i dun wanna sae liiaoo. calling mii a loose girl hurt mii even more. wad can i do to let him haf all the trust in mi!?!. TELL MII!!!!!!!!

at camp the past few daes.. was kinda farn n super duper tired!!! haha. the first dae when we went there rite.. it was like.. so deserted n haunted-looked. den we settled down in the MPH hall den started our dae's activities. 2nd dae was the BEST of all leahhs. we went to the NATURE RUMBLE!! WOOOHOOOOOOOOOO`. we were like soaking in mud the whole time. had sooooo much farn. :) but stil.. it was tiring la. haha.

-=`+sabb

* i lurve tis dae!! n .. the dae tat i will nvr ever forget in mii lifee =x

2005-06-05T23:45:00.000-07:00

In e mrnin. woke up at like 10 plus lidat. gotten readii to go church wif him lorhs. dens met him at mii side gate. ermms. SUPER NERVOUS for church lorhhs. like.. mii hands were cold n all. n super super super scared!!!! like the world's gonna end lidat. haha. okaee. den met the peeps at doby ghort MRT dere. wow!! so manii of em!! i was like.. surpriised dat the peeps dere were sooooo OPEN n FRIENDLY n NICE!!!! dey're like damn cool n all. haha. den esp michelle, chi wen, jenn, alex, fang lynn, n all lahhs. haha. dens walked dere. met LOADS of peeps. n oya! meehan!! hahaha. super farn sia!! nvr had such farn b4! honestly.. mii past image of god n church was like.. super boring. jst hyms.. n the pastor wud tok tok tok tok tok non stop. haha. but now. even haf ROCK BAND !! COOL SONGS!! COOL PEEPS!! WOOOOOOHOOOOOO`!!!! haha. i m madd abt it liaoos. cant waiit to hang out more wif these peeps. well.. hope those frenship stuffs wun happen wif dem tho. haha. NVR REGRETTED !! n.. yea. GOD IS WIF MII!!!! now.. i TINK i m a christian? or not? i nort shure. I DUNO!!! hahaha.

n todae was e mst UNFORGETTABLE DAE. u shud noe y. we bof agreed to stae NORMAL FRENS rite? yaee!! haha. let's work towards a GREAT n FANTASTIC frenshiip. altho i had much farn n nice nice nice time wif u those nites.. but.. well. its still gonna end aniwae. so.. yea. MAY GOD BE WIF U ALWAYS!! LURVE U!! haha.

n oh shit. camp's on tues n 2dae's sundae. n i havern even packed mii bag!!! haha. n mii mum's finalli cumin bac 2ml!! WOOHOOO! miis her loads!! . cant waiit to c her again!!! haha. lurbe u mum!! :))

those hols hwm tho i finished dem.. but still need ALOT of touch up. soo.. after i cum bac frm msia den edit dem lahhs. hahah. n CHINESE HWM SUCKS!! hahaha. YOOHOOOOO!!``. aniwae. gtg liaoos arhs. tired liaoos. nitey niites! :x

[[___01 sabb+`

" -= wad's gonna happen. ? +`

2005-06-05T10:38:00.000-07:00

paisehs. last nite din update. err.. yea la. yesterdae okok lorhs. in e mrnin woke up... came online. chatted a while. when to bathe. den meet grace at mii hse there. she came here to dance ballet wiif mii n to plae billard n didi was suppose to cum to teach der. den call him .. sudd sae mst ask fren. den fren canort go. den sae sudd gort campfire. den oso in e end diin go fer campfire. wad a waste!! haha. but nvm lahhs. still gort nxt time der mahs. haha. aniwae.. den after dat in the billard room rites..grace was like soooo super HYPER man. haha. she was dancin some stuffs den use the billard thingy as a stick for limbo. hahaha. dens 5.00 liaoos. haf to log out. den i went hme n her daddii came to fetch her. :)

Came bac. came online.. bathed. dens chatted wif didi n some other peeps. ermmms.. dens toked alot alot alot of nonscensical stuff. [duno speling la]. hmm.. den smsed HIM. den chatted on e phone frm abt like 10 plus to 11 plus lidats. :p den asked mii go THERE. i scared!!! well.. mayb i was nort sporty enuff or sumthing.. but .. u noe... like... i duno the ppl there well .. den sudd go there like so... err.. odd? haha. but still.. in e end i will go lorhs. haha. its gonna b 2dae i guess. hehe. aniwae.. miisss him alot alot alot. :) ... i tink i'll go n bathe liaoos.

#--+sabb`

||*--another daee!! ARGH! :#

2005-06-03T23:27:00.000-07:00

hmms. another daee lerhhs!! arghh!!! SO BORING!! luckii gort HIM to spiice my life up. loll. altho its jst 2 daes before we're gonna meet rites.. i still miiss him lots liaoos. boooos.. haha. jst wanna tell "U" dat i enjoyed whurt happened dat niite. n i will satisfy u on sundaee k? LOL.

erms. 2dae was kinda a BORING dae again. mrnin went to visit sum1 lahhs. dens came hme at abt 10 plus lidats. haha. den ytd at e cinema super niice. haha.
2dae jst spent e whole dae onliine.. chatting.. slpiin + eating = TV. haha. slacked whole daee. haha. 2mr do some work..; patch up lorhhs. :))

dens jst now chatted on e phone wif sum1 lahhs. lurvveee tokiin to HER. I LURVE HER!!!! hahahahahahhaa.

-=sabb+`

-= jst like mii...

2005-06-03T14:20:00.000-07:00

When sadness comes around

I just want to cry

I miss your love so very much

Sometimes i want to die

I wish we'd be close again

Like we used to be

But i was just another girl

Im not too blind to see

When people heard about us

They warmed me way too much

They warned me of my feelings

They warned me of your touch

You said you had some feelings

That you thought were true

You just got what u wanted

Then i fell in love with you

You decided you'd leave

Love you i aways tried

I'll always know i love you

But i'll always know you lied

__________________________________

It's gone

What's gone?

My mind?Soul?

No, I'm fine

Not really

Deep inside, something is missing

The love and tender kissing

She walked out herself

Now all I do is talk to myselfin the mirror,

with my reflection

My heart is dead

Soon it will make a resurrection

Once the wounds heal

And I'm loved for real

A type of love I can feel

But nobody loves me

Nobody cares

Nobody loves me

That nobody is me

I can't love myself

because no one does

I'm all alone and no longer what I once was

But the only thing that keeps me alive

Is knowing that the next day,

it might all change

For the best

And that "nobody" becomes somebody

___________________________

our love is

a waste land

of promises

in vain of past

of present

of future

nothing rotting

quietly in my palms

_______________

[+] unexpected =#

2005-06-02T22:16:00.000-07:00

mayb 2dae was gd. mayb 2dae was nort gd. cos i realii duno!! hahaha. hmms.. it was kinda like a farn dae lahhs. in e mrnin met wif grace at her hse de bustop. dens..... yea.. went to Katong Plaza, met sy jia.. dens go c e costumes. yepp. aftertat we went to eat laksa oso. haha. den go bac.. bathe.. change. after dat we had to meet jos n nette at e siide gate. we took bus to TM .. went to buy e tix fer a STOOPIID show. but some parts were kinda farniiieee. haha. hmms...dens in e end had to waiit fer the others. haha. den went to c e show lors. in e show it was like.. supposedli alternate.. budden it was kinda like messed up in e end. after the show went to arcade.. plaed like madd. guys VS girls. n 1st tiime girls won!!! wooohhooo```. but 2nd tiime dey won. BOOO!!! haaha. dens we all went bac hme lorhs. haha. farn dae lahhs. den on e wae in e bus .. grace sit bside mi. haha. den we chatted. yea. den go bac hme n here i m!!. haha.

to u : there may b somethings dat we did which we shudnt b doin it lahs. but kinda enjoyed it? haha. yes i noe it is abt HIM up dere. but.. i kinda like it tho tat we bof opened up lahs. yepps. take a step bac. :))

i guess i'll end it here.. too tired lerhhs.

`-->sabb+

"+wads life for. it sucks??

2005-06-01T10:38:00.000-07:00

does life even suck?? haiiyoo. the thot of IPW makes mii headache! puppets onii a few done lorhs. dens the stage havern even TOUCHED on it okaee. i tink onii mii n jos shud do it bahhs. canort rely on e other two lers. dey do e simple things leahhs.. den we do e difficult wans lorhhs. haiis. now i tink i shud start on e last puppet bahhs...MYSELF lorhs. but now..mii hands n legs canort move to take e things = LAZY!!!. haha. aiiya. at 12.00 den i start lahhs.

mm.. so long diin chat or c didi lers. . duno where he go liaos. sms oso nvr replii. everytiime oso nort onliine. miss him mans.. onii as didi n jie jie lahhs. haha. actualli i tink he's nort dat shy bahhs.. think DAT time he was too paiiseh or sumthin. lalalalalala. BORED!!.

i jst woke up lorhs. nth to do........ ok lahs. i go get readii eat mii breakfast. :)

`+-sabb

# bored!!! tired!!! but canort slp. duno y lehs.+--

2005-06-01T00:09:00.000-07:00

at nites lers. so sianns!!. nth to do. everydae seems to b like e sme lidats lorhs. wanna make a difference in everydaee of mii life NOW.. if nort shure haf regrets ders. haha. hmmmmm.. some shud noe wad i m tokiin abt bahs. SO SIANS !!!! : haha.

seriouslii bored okae. NTH TO DO!!. wanna go out!!. lol. like in prison lidat. no lahhs. i kinda haf loads of freedom now lahhs. well.. at least to mii la. bof parents out on vacation.. end of june den come bac. now onii e beginin of june lorhhs!!. haha. btw. altho its still kinda far away.. but.. mii b'dae cumin lers. well.. SORT OF cumin wad. hahahaha. so.. yea. ok. mii finalli feeling tired lerhs. haha. goo slp.....

`sabb--+

/+shocked. DUNO WAD TO DO :|

2005-05-31T18:20:00.000-07:00

`+ 31052005__

where is ur heart

cos i dun realii feel u

where is ur heart

wad i reali wan is to believe u

is it so hard

to gimme wad i need

mii favourite lines :)

ermms. last nitee. chatted wif SOMEONE lahhs. frm 11pm- 2am. hmmm.. dens was tokiin half waee lahhs. dens SUDD sae haf something to tell mii. which made mii confused n at lost of words. i reali .. seriouslii duno wad to do lorhhs. i m like in the show : LOST. haha. err... dens it was damn akward lahhs. i duno if we shud jst stay as frens or like.....givee him a chance or sumthing. we wud reali b better off if we jst stayed as frens. budden agaiin.. i dun wanna miiss tiis chance. :( how how how how!?!?!?!?! hmmmm.. i tink i've made up mii mind. n i'll tell hiim e answer TODAE. :)

2daee arhhs. haiiyoo!! went to sch earlii in e mrnin lahhs. dens mdm nora sae she forgot to bring e CDs. haiis. dens haf to go all e wae bac hme agaiin. den mii n grace had to think of steps for e dance lahs. dens tot of iit liaoos leahhs. dens after tat when jos came arhhs...[after band].. she sae it was kinda BORING>> so.. we decided to make it more INTERESTING. hahaha. yea. dens went to grace's hse to eat lunch.. mmmmm.. yumyumyumy. :) dens went bac agaiin. tis tiime sy jia was dere. haha. dens we choreographed anoder dance lahhs. kiinda niice. haha. dens we went to plaee biilard lorhhs. dens sy jia was so farniieee. hahaha. we den made our wae bac lorhhs. too tired to go fer ballet ler lorhhs. cos ballet classes at mon tues wed n sat lorh! 4 DAES ok!!! n i can do double pirohuette!! yiiipeeeee``

i guess later i update agaiin bahhs. c wad will HAPPEN. :)

[*] another daeeee. i dun wanna go -- :(

2005-05-30T22:37:00.000-07:00

``30052005*

2daee was kinda e old boriing dae. sme thing over n over again. haha. erms... i e mrnin woke up. went online. toktoktok. dens went to orchard collect sumthing. SUPER FAR. haha. dens camee bac. went onliine agaiin. dens get readii fer ballet. hmmm.. den went fer BALLET!! yiiipeee`. ballet so totalli rocks. diid lots of pirohuettes..set exercises.. blablabla. haha. dens on e wae bac hme while wokiin to e interchange [TM].. saw e show "THE EYE 10" on vcd dere. super super farniieee!!! haha. mii n denise were like laughin NON STOP. haha. siao larhhs.

actuali nth much larhhs. jst tokiin on msn n smsiin. haha. damn boriing. hmmm.. luckii gort frens man. :) being in s'pore has been like a GREAT xperience. growin up here. livin here all mi life. but soon.. mii gonna go ler. gonna go somewhere. nvr gonna cum bac. sadds lorhhs. tat thot always saddens mii. -bleahs. haiis. wad to do. dad's business dere mahhs. ermms. gonna miis LOADS of ppl. cant hlp but -criiiyyy.. i mean is like. no one will noee dat feeling of growiin up somewhere n SUDD leavin jst like tat. so damn fast. tryiin to treasure every single tiime wif some ppl but dey jst dun appreciate it. i wonder wat wil hapen if i told dem i was leaviin . i guess dey'd jst "HACK CARE". :(

sadds- but .. tryiin hard to lead a happii n carefree life now b4 i leave n haf HAPPY MEMORIES.

-sabb+` i m miieeeee :)

`[x] there's nothiin wrong wif mii_____cant u jst accept hu i m??!!??

2005-05-29T20:20:00.000-07:00

im jst PLAIN BORED!!. tats y i comee n updatee dish blog bahhs. anywaes.. last niite still kinda boriing lahhs. everydaee oso do e sme thing. :) but chatted on e phone wif someone lahhs. kinda farniieee.. keep mii companii. dens perle went hme lerhs. ytd nite dun haf e RU HUA show .. so boriing!!!

i jst realised that.. a true fren is someone hu stands by u and support u in what ever u do. and shows a lot of care n concern fer u. a true fren is someone hu doesnt ignore u suddenlii .. a true fren is some wan hu cheers u up when u're feeling down. ppl hu jst use u as a SUBSTITUTE are suckers+idioticers+fuckers. oopss*

beautiful-disaster|`` [*-]

2005-05-29T19:41:00.000-07:00

-``29052005+
2dae's an OK daee-e lahhs. nth much oso. lalala. 2daee perle camee mii hse lahhs. :) we had sucha farnieee tiime togeder. so long diin get togeder wif u lers. haha. dens 1stly we go plaeee billard .. dens mii went to dance ballet!! haha. bleahs- so farrn. den tok tok tok.

yesterdaee sat rites. at nites went to dancin at far-east sq dere. quite ok lahhs. damn long diin c e ppl dere lerrs. miiss dem loads. at e sme tiime. scared of whurt dey mite think of mi n perle lahh. went dere fer class at 6.00 plus lidats lahhs. dens dancin dancin dancin. gettiin togeder and haf toks. dere gort new gurl lahhs. cheryl i guess. goin in fer comp hors. wish those goin HK fer comp a *g0od lucKs`. hmmm.. actualli was in e comp wan lahhs. dens backout lorhhs. hahaha. geraldine n diyannah nort dere lerhhs. got kicked out? miiss dem mans.

hols lai ler. sian sian sian!!. everydaee at hme do nothin!!

but i tink last weeek rites. jos n nette came over to mii hse fer SLEEPOVER!! WOOOOHOOOOO``!!! had farn! dey came up mii hse. tokeed a lil whiile. dens nich asked us to go katong eat LAKSA. haha. dens took bus dere. saw dem. abt 4 peeps i tink.. we sat on anoder table. 3 girls VS 4 guys. LOL. dens eating halfwae rites.. one person SUDD turn over n saed :"dyu all mind if we join u all?" n the thing is dey diin even intro demselves. n tokeed all e topiics dat were nort even related to each other at all. laughiin like MAD lorhhs. sucha farn tiime.
dens went bac hme by bus agaiin.. SUNG e whole nites.

on fridaee : went out wif sam , jos n nich to FEI FEI YUN TUN MIAN. kinda niice lahhs. but chiilliiii DAMN HELL HOT!!! well.. exageratin lahhs. den plaed scissors paper stone. hit nich n sam's hand like damn hard. awww.. poor things. budden dey oso hit mii damn hard lor!!. dens nich made us wok like.. SO LONG jst fer bus 16. n e thing was tat we were standiin outside a KTV. dens got some chinese "chicken" ladies wok into it. haha.

hmmmm.. now everydaee seems so damn bored. but gonna go msiia soon bahhs. gonna c cousiins agaiin!!! yiiiipppppeeeeeeeeee``.

--.sabb+